im a teenager myself but it still seems odd to me...not the cutting i used to do that too (long story) but the wall and deodorant and all that stuff ... hey, at least they're being creative
There is this one chick on my bus who cuts all the way up her arms and on her stomach and she only wears sports bras and shorts for PE.. so we can see all of her scars and then some people who were worried about her told our teacher and she said, "It's alright - she's just expressing herself. She'll come to us when she's ready..." and the rest of the whole entire fukkn world stood still for that one moment with a 'DAFUQ DID SHE JUST SAY?' look on their face...
I cut....well scratch....but not on my own free will. Sometimes something in my mind snaps I just begin scratching, any were really and I keep scratching until I am stopped or if I come back. Doctors dont know what it is. which is why even if it is 100 out I wear long sleeves and I always wear pants, granted the scars are only on my upper most leg but with the way they make shorts now a days they would show and the shorts I do have are hideous ones that don't fit me right. the only time I do wear shorts or tang tops is when I am at home or with my best friend since she knows what I do. even when I was in high school all i wore were baggy clothes so the fabric wouldn't rub up against the wounds. So when I saw that cutting for beaver thing I took that as an insult to those who really DO have problems and need serious help. I am scarred for life because of this mental thing I have. I would spit on them if I ever saw these people. Shame on them.
Bella, I think you might have a case of dermatillomania, you could ask your doctors if its a possibility, and I really do hope that you recover and that things get better, also that you get diagnosed or find a peace of mind. I can't really do anything since I'm just a human typing stuff on a tablet, and the fact that I don't know you, butI really wish you good luck. And like I said,I hate growing up in this generation.
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