What's going on? Want to talk about it or vent?

I don't know if my husband is going to make it and I can't do it without him.

Sorry to hear that, I'm Jewish so, unfortunately, I'm very used to losing loved ones. PM me your contact info, I would be happy to talk to you and happy for you to bend my ear. I've been through this many, many times... for as long as Hamas and the Palestinian Authority have been firing rockets into Israel.

I would also say that regardless of how bad things seem, even up until what seems like the very end, hold onto that hope and that fire. Even if things go south, it will help you.

I'm so sorry to hear what you're going through

I feel a pit of constant anxiety. Like a hole in my chest. But I know he's going through worse. I feel bad for feeling bad.

That guilty feeling is something really tough to justify when you feel like your loved one is hurting more, trust me when I say it's every bit of okay to feel what you're feeling. That sort of pain wears you down so please remember to take care of yourself, I know you probably feel guilty doing anything with your husband's health in mind but he wouldn't want you to suffer. It's okay to cry and it's okay to worry for the future, it's difficult not too but please love and cherish these times with your husband because you want him to know you love him and he is safe. If you have family keep them around you, hurt together, love him together, remind yourself and him of the good times and try and keep that love strong and abundant. We're always here if you need us, tell us how things are going, I'm so sorry you have to go through this but you will push through. Try to think about the present, take everyday with him as a beautiful treasure just as you would if he was healthy.

Basically exactly what @parisqeen said, don't forget to look after yourself and love him to the fullest now more than ever
We're here for you... this is really hard and I'm so sorry that you have to go through this