@savage_demmigod I'm still here for you bud. You're strong, you have the heart, and even when you feel like you're drowning in the darkness someone out there cares about you and will shine as much of their light on you as possible--even if they dont have much to give, theyll give it to you just to help light your path a bit.

You've got this. Keep moving.

Oh my goodness I'm so glad you're good. I hope you've had a pleasant time or at least a restful one.
Thank you... thank you so much. I'll be okay but fuck it's hard right now. I can't believe how quickly things keep going wrong. I just feel so damn out of control

The dirty little secret is that you're rarely ever in control. We deal with the obstacles as they come and fight through them. You're allowed to feel tired and you're allowed to feel beatdown, that doesnt mean you arent doing well and that doesnt mean you are being successful, it just means you're fighting through today's battle.

^ This is very important

Yo @savage_demmigod write down everything you're concerned about or is bogging you down. Every little detail and thought. Go through the list and prioritize it all. Go through 1-4. 1 is immediate concern and 4 is not a priority. It should help clear your head and help you re-focus. I did it before and realized everything I worried about didn't rank over a 2 once I looked at it plainly.