Thank you. I really can't do this. Watching the person you're in love with fall out of love with you is one of the most painful experiences. I'd take physical pain any day.
It hurts even just a littl bit more if that person is one of your best friends and he never even loved you in the first place. And then he starts dating the girl who bullied you for a year and a half. Dude. I am so, so sorry. *hugs*
My ex and I dated for 2.5 years, broke up in December, got back together in February because we couldn't live without each other and then he dumped me again in August. He was my best friend and I don't have anyone else. I feel like everything he told me was a lie. That I'll never be good enough for anyone. I love him so much. He is my favorite form of self destruction.
I have. He knows. While we were broken up, I slept with another guy because a) I thought he wasn't ever coming back b) I was trying to make myself feel wanted c) was tired of being good and it getting me no where. So I told him before we got back together because I never lie to him and that's why we aren't together. He couldnt forgive me. But before I slept with that guy I tried to contact my ex but got ignored. I tried to make him understand everything I've just told you but obviously the odds were not ever in my favor b
For somebody who goes through this.. I honestly can't thank you enough.
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· 9 years ago
I haven't cut in over a year. There have been times where I try and convince myself that one little slip will be fine. Getting past those voices is worth it.
Would you mind telling why you cut to begin with? Or more specifically, why cut as opposed to say...drugs? What appeals about cutting when you're depressed?
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· 9 years ago
It started as body issues, reminding myself that of I ate I would cut. Then it progressed to stress relief. The blood rushing out was like all the stress pouring out, and reminding me how good it felt...for like 10 minutes.
I have a friend that has seen all this from me...and he has stuck around. I still dont know why he has and I'm trying not to think too much about it...but I sure as shit dont feel like I'm worth the trouble I put him through.
As someone who is really laid back and actually happy I find it really hard to put myself in the shoes of people who go through this, it's interesting read the comments and see how common it is... It upsets me...
It is, it's upsetting. The people who go through it hate to see other like it because we know how broken we are and it hurts to imagine anyone else in tht kind of pain.
I feel like I understand this too much...
Just wanted to say to gottalovepotter that people like you that are kind and help people they don't know or haven't seen are the reason I'm still alive. So thank you so much (merci <3)
Then I have a right to tell my girlfriend she's beautiful, that she's lovely, and that she's flawless :)
(Sorry about the bump, some people don't appreciate it)
I have a friend who cutted but I keep her happy and I Try my best and she said it helps. she also said she almost jumped in front of a car because she stopped because of me. She thought I would think iwasn't trying hard wentenough and that i wasted my time. really, that joke isn't funny here.
Look around. Suicide and self harm is a hell of a lot more common than you think. And not just now, it goes back a long time. Go fuck yourself with a cactus please c:
Tell him congratulations, help him along, but let him know that you'll be around for him if he needs it.
Ily guys
Just wanted to say to gottalovepotter that people like you that are kind and help people they don't know or haven't seen are the reason I'm still alive. So thank you so much (merci <3)
(Sorry about the bump, some people don't appreciate it)