Don't start testosterone pills without consulting your doctor. You might make yourself sick. I have a kik if you wanna talk that way

Wish I could. Mother would have my head.

Tell her I'm someone from school

Nah don't do that. I don't wanna get you in trouble

One of the first things you should do is get yourself on a set sleep schedule. Go to bed at the same time every night, even if you don't feel tired - just lie there quietly and let yourself fall asleep. Wake up at the same time every day, and make yourself get up. Honestly, having a regular sleeping schedule is the base treatment for so many psychological problems. Before starting testosterone pills (which seems a little drastic), try starting an exercise regimen. Make yourself a kick-ass playlist that gets you pumped. If you think you'll have trouble motivating yourself, try googling "30 day running challenge" or "30 day ab workout" etc. You can find some that you can do in your room if you're not allowed to leave the house much, and these challenges usually start small so you don't burn out early. The best course for motivation is usually "fake it 'til you make it" - get a planner, get organised, stay on top of school assignments, and pretend like you have it together until you do.

disgusted by a lot of things guys do?

I'm here because I wanna tell this someone, so. I like bananas. bye

I don't like it when men get all amped and sweaty and shit, or start to measure dicks(figuratively) or make dick jokes all the time.

@banana there ya go bud

I'm sorry that you feel that way. Just remember that you've got a great group of people here on fs. Don't get discouraged to share your thoughts or inner-conflicts. I realize it's not all that helpful, but I believe you should get a routine going.
Also, please keep in mind that you probably shouldn't listen to people on the internet, this is as much advice as I can offer.
Good luck compadre, best of wishes to you, and I hope your situation improves.

Yo sero, what do you wanna do after school? Any plans?

I want to be a game designer and go to a university in Washington.
I want to be a YouTube that is Gameplay/Animation/Politics.
And finally, I want to see Kassinda and finally kiss her.

Have you practiced that any? (Who's kassinda?)

Not really.
Not even sure where to start.
Kassdestruction or kisnotundercover

Try finding something simple to start out with. Maybe flash games and/or browser based games. Establish a base so you don't go into the field completely green. Get a feel for what you'll be doing. The very last thing you'll want to do at a young age is spend a shitton of time and money on a career you may not even like in the long run. (I know a lot of people who've spent $15,000 on tech School who'll never touch a welder again and won't reap the benefit of the career as they don't like it and/or can't do it). If you know what you're getting into you'll be much better off.

Ah, gotcha

I've always wanted to make RPG games.
I'll start by buying RPG Maker and making an RPG from there.

Practice makes perfect. In regards to school now though do your best. Once you leave high school and college age high school won't matter nearly as much. Also, comparing yourself to others who may do better in certain areas than you won't help you either. You may not be compatible with schooling and how it's done, i know i wasn't, but you do need to do your best. Do you homework and get average grades and you'll do just fine.