Only one person in my life shared my interests and he left so know I've got no one and everyone else that I love doesn't really care, so this hit me right in the feels
Damn, right in the feels. It's not even being told to shut up, just when they say something like "Mhm, I wasn't listening..." or stop paying attention is enough to make you feel bad about yourself.
PS: I'm no cutiepie, I'm just an averagely looking girl. I hope that doesn't mean that excludes me because that would be kinda hypocritical. Sorry about being so negativistic about this, I just can't help but pick at this a bit.
I totally relate with you. It's not that people tell you to be quiet, it's that when you really want to talk to someone and enthuse about something, they're busy with something else and don't have the time to listen to you. This happens to me pretty much on a daily basis at home.
Yeah, and it's often not just at home, but also at school. And the strangest thing is, I didn't miss talking to these people while on summer vacation at all. I had my books and games and everything and I actually prefer being alone. But now that I started going to school again, I feel more lonely than I did in summer, because it's not being alone that makes you feel lonely, it's being surrounded by people who don't want to listen to you. *hugs you empathetically*
*hugs back* I have a small group of friends worth being around. I know a girl (used loosely, she is gender neutral) that is really shy but a great person, and today at school she was eating alone because no one was in our lunch, so I'm eating with her. She says in a group, she just stays quiet mostly because it's so hard to get into a conversation. And we both get it.
The only one that listens to me really is my dog. Every time I get off school I go to my room and talk to him right after school. Tell him how my day was.
PS: I'm no cutiepie, I'm just an averagely looking girl. I hope that doesn't mean that excludes me because that would be kinda hypocritical. Sorry about being so negativistic about this, I just can't help but pick at this a bit.