At a summer camp i was forced to reveal my mental illnesses to my roommates after having an anxiety attack in the shower when they banged on the door and started yelling at me and I told them I also had depression and they were like, "okay, no you don't," and I asked, "what makes you say that?" and one of them said, "i've seen you be happy and smile and laugh." I told her that isn't how it works, but she had a hard time understanding that my smiles and laughter is mostly just a habit of faking it, and very rarely actual joy.
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