Sorry to hear that you feel that way bruh, but it's good that you are getting help. It won't be easy or quick, but you will definitely make it out of this. You are a strong boy. And in the meantime if you need someone to talk to, we are all here bruh.

If you depressed and you know it clap your hands
*claps feverishly*
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In all seriousness, I've recently stopped taking my meds and boi was that a bad idea. Back to anti-deps, anti-anxieties, and legal coke it is.

Damn I hit post before I was done.
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But basically I know the feels bro. And we are all here to chat if you wanna. You can also send a message on telegram if you wanna talk

I can be your antidepressant. I mean cmon man we’re spite cereal buddies.

Have you tried exercise? I use to get anxiety and I have a old gym not far from my house. So I subscribed, it feels a bit like an achievement and it helped me a lot before covid. Now, I'm stuck doing bodyweight. Its not the same but its something. I don't know if it's scientific though. Another thing I did, this time to overcome depression, I got rid of a lot of friends and stopped talking to some awful relatives.