I have to disagree. I feel like this video didn't accurately portray my depression AT ALL, not even in the slightest. I can't speak for others, so I won't, but personally my depression (having been rated as severe case, due to suicide) is far more serious then this. Here it's presented as an irritating thing, when in reality (at least for me) it is crippling. We're talking, getting up at 3am in the morning and waking into garage so you can cry, the worthlessness that is far too ineffable to describe, the hopelessness, the constant wishing that you would disappear. Most days I can't even focus on simple conversations because my mind keeps screaming at me, begging me to leave this world behind. You see no future, there is no present and the past is some haunting creature that drags you down into this dark, consuming hole. The medication doesn't work as well and the therapy is getting repetitive. Eventually you begin to feel like this is how it's always going to be.
There's only one poem that comes close to it. Solitude, by Ella Wheeler Cox
Laugh, and the world laughs with you;
Weep, and you weep alone;
For the sad old earth must borrow its mirth,
But has trouble enough of its own.
Sing, and the hills will answer;
Sigh, it is lost on the air;
The echoes bound to a joyful sound,
But shrink from voicing care.
Rejoice, and men will seek you;
Grieve, and they turn and go;
They want full measure of all your pleasure,
But they do not need your woe.
Be glad, and your friends are many;
Be sad, and you lose them all,—
There are none to decline your nectared wine,
But alone you must drink life’s gall.
Feast, and your halls are crowded;
Fast, and the world goes by.
Succeed and give, and it helps you live,
But no man can help you die.
There is room in the halls of pleasure
For a large and lordly train,
But one by one we must all file on
Through the narrow aisles of pain.
I honestly think it varies person to person. I've been diagnosed with something that made me lose the ability to cry and increased my bloodlust. In general, you just don't deserve to feel this way, even if you've walked your own path knowing that no one will completely understand because it's your point of view, people feel things in different ways and I think that should be respected.
Thank you for pointing that out. I really do apologize for that reply I made without having the proper bearing as to take those details into consideration. I hope you can be able to fight this fight of yours but I really do wish you the best. I'm really sorry, I should've respected your comment more before turning to my opinions. I don't want to accuse you of falsities, just like you, I also had something to say.
@everything It's me again, actually, still that same guest hehe. I just wanted to know...are you a girl or a guy? I'm a girl, and I couldn't help but really feel bad about what I said. I wasn't pointing it out to you, really, I guess I made a paradox of my own opinions. If you don't mind, lets make an online handshake. I'd be really happy if you'd online handshake me as well ^_^ Put her there, bro! If thats alright with you...
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· 9 years ago
@everything. I cried reading your first comment on this post. I feel like that everyday and night. It's hard dealing with depression. I hope you overcome it soon and find the light as I wish I do every time. Stay strong. I know it's easy said than done but all you can do is try. X
@spoiltbrat, I don't usually do this but *opens arms* I'm hugging the computer right now and it's all for you. I know it's tough but you're not alone, if you ever feel like talking to me, I'm here for you.
@ Female, I'm a girl (sorry for the confusion, the username doesn't really give much away). Sorry if I sounded defensive, it's just that I've encountered many guests on FS who have been quite rude...you're obviously NOT like them.
Let's definitely shake on it :)
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· 9 years ago
Aww thanks @everything. *hugs my phone* hugs you back. Thanks but I tried talking to people. Therapy was pointless too cos I was too afraid to open up to anyone. Used to self harm as a teen and my parents told me I was attention seeking. All I wanted was a hug from my mum. Sorry I'm getting depressing now! Nice to know there are good people left in this world. My love to everyone. Big hug. Xxx
@everything Yay! I was so scared, I thought I'd offended someone so much to that point. I really don't like it if I accidentally put my thoughts in the wrong place and suddenly sound so offensive. I really hope that you can fight, it's what I've been trying to do, really. I wish you that there will be people there for you, people you don't need to ask for help but will just be there. Heck, ask me if you want! My names K, literally just that one letter. See ya, everything! ^_^
I feel really bad after reading all your comments, I didn't really think mine through. I meant that it's not what my depression is like, and I guess it pushed my buttons because I knew someone who would describe something like this and simultaneously minimise my issues. Sorry if I offended anyone, I really didn't mean it.
@sarahj75 Uhh...my mind keeps getting me back here LOL. I'm K, hi! I'm the STILL that same guest and well I just wanted to say that it's fine. We're human and it happens time to time. I get you. That's a whole lotta comment reading you got to, though! Keep fighting, okay. :)
Depression to me is like a battle between your happy self and your sad self and if you let yourself go and kill yourself, you let the bad side win.
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· 9 years ago
But sometimes it can feel like there's no light at the end of the tunnel and the only way out is to end your life. I know it's not a solution but for some people it could be their only choice. Trust me I've been there so many times. Doesn't get easier. Xxx
Laugh, and the world laughs with you;
Weep, and you weep alone;
For the sad old earth must borrow its mirth,
But has trouble enough of its own.
Sing, and the hills will answer;
Sigh, it is lost on the air;
The echoes bound to a joyful sound,
But shrink from voicing care.
Rejoice, and men will seek you;
Grieve, and they turn and go;
They want full measure of all your pleasure,
But they do not need your woe.
Be glad, and your friends are many;
Be sad, and you lose them all,—
There are none to decline your nectared wine,
But alone you must drink life’s gall.
Feast, and your halls are crowded;
Fast, and the world goes by.
Succeed and give, and it helps you live,
But no man can help you die.
There is room in the halls of pleasure
For a large and lordly train,
But one by one we must all file on
Through the narrow aisles of pain.
"I can't speak for others, so I won't, but personally my depression.."
Let's definitely shake on it :)