So, this is just not socially acceptable in today's world

Read/watch porn.

Write a short story on a traveler who kills the person sitting next to him on planes in horrifying ways. And then slowly turn towards her, looking straight into her eyes. Feel a connection, fall in love, get married, and then kill her in horrifying ways, just like you wrote because you weren't writing a short story, you were writing your plan on how to deal with her in horrifying ways.

go into notes: type up; I know you're reading this please stop.