*ANGSTY TEEN RANT*
I think about college sometimes, and getting a full time job when I'm older, finding something I like... Getting shit tons of money... Stuff that I used to dream about, but they just don't appeal to me at alI. I realize that I don't really WANT any of that. I've been good in school and shit, but I just... dont feel joy in the thought of doing any normal life stuff. I guess I'd have kids and obviously a loving husband... But I feel stuck. I HAVE to do these things.
I've always wanted to just be a kid stuck in my own world of magic, adventures, and fun. But, of course, there isn't any real magic or adventure out there, and if there is, for some fucking reason it doesn't want to find its way to me. I'm probably going to end out dead to my parents eventually with this attitude, and probably everybody else, because it's a stupid thought. I have to get over it and grow up. I just don't know what to do. I don't even know how to properly convey my feelings!
4
deleted
· 7 years ago
I felt the same way so I thought "fuck it" and dropped out of college. I only went because my mother expected it of me, but I was never happy. My depression was at an all time low and I almost killed myself once. That scared me enough to officially drop out and I've never been happier. I don't have all that useless stress on my shoulders. I'm having a go at being a writer and seeing where that gets me, but until then, I'm a walmart whore who is broke af
But I'm still happier than when I was in college
So you really need to ask yourself "do I want to go to college because I want to or because I'm told to" if you don't wanna go for you then don't go
I say this with both seriousness and respect: There's a word for the struggles you guys are describing and it's called 'life'. A wiser mam than I once told me "your 20's are for figuring out what you want to do with your life, but you better damn well have it figured out by the time you're 30." The reason that quote makes sense is because there is a lot of confusion through your teens and 20's, there always has been. It's a strange time in life where those people think they have it all figured out when in reality they've just begun. That's a dangerous combination of pride, confidence and naivety. Once you're through that stage you realize how much you don't know. Then you'll be on your on a path to real wisdom. A bit of advice: talk to respectable elders and listen to learn! They'll seem like they dont understand, but they've all been there.
Listen, I understand. I didn't grow up in the best house, and I have friends who had worse parents than I did. Using collage as an escape is not a great idea.
College is expensive, and stressful, and not near as much fun as movies make it out to be. Even with scholarships you will still likely have to take out loans, which you will then have to pay back. And unless you picked a good subject of study and are out in the world making better money, you will have an extra bill and no extra income to show for it.
Ideally, get a job and move out when you can afford to. If you can't really afford to, talk to your friends, maybe fund a roommate, make loving more affordable without your parents.
Baring that, look into what programs you might qualify for, and get some help getting started.
My advice is to get into the trades work. The supply of people is falling while demand is rising. I can't put into words how rewarding working with your hands is. Those people will out earn 4 year degree people in upcoming years. Blue collor work has a bad wrap, but they will have huge respect in the near future. Follow Mike Rowe for more info.
SAME HERE
OK, listen. My parents are arguing AS I AM POSTING THIS COMMENT. All they do is scream at each other. I'm not even concerned for their marriage, it's just ANNOYING. And when they're not screaming at each other, they're screaming at the dog or the cat because they need something. I would KILL for some goddamn piece and quiet with these two!
I think about college sometimes, and getting a full time job when I'm older, finding something I like... Getting shit tons of money... Stuff that I used to dream about, but they just don't appeal to me at alI. I realize that I don't really WANT any of that. I've been good in school and shit, but I just... dont feel joy in the thought of doing any normal life stuff. I guess I'd have kids and obviously a loving husband... But I feel stuck. I HAVE to do these things.
I've always wanted to just be a kid stuck in my own world of magic, adventures, and fun. But, of course, there isn't any real magic or adventure out there, and if there is, for some fucking reason it doesn't want to find its way to me. I'm probably going to end out dead to my parents eventually with this attitude, and probably everybody else, because it's a stupid thought. I have to get over it and grow up. I just don't know what to do. I don't even know how to properly convey my feelings!
But I'm still happier than when I was in college
So you really need to ask yourself "do I want to go to college because I want to or because I'm told to" if you don't wanna go for you then don't go
College is expensive, and stressful, and not near as much fun as movies make it out to be. Even with scholarships you will still likely have to take out loans, which you will then have to pay back. And unless you picked a good subject of study and are out in the world making better money, you will have an extra bill and no extra income to show for it.
Ideally, get a job and move out when you can afford to. If you can't really afford to, talk to your friends, maybe fund a roommate, make loving more affordable without your parents.
Baring that, look into what programs you might qualify for, and get some help getting started.
OK, listen. My parents are arguing AS I AM POSTING THIS COMMENT. All they do is scream at each other. I'm not even concerned for their marriage, it's just ANNOYING. And when they're not screaming at each other, they're screaming at the dog or the cat because they need something. I would KILL for some goddamn piece and quiet with these two!