Sad people

@laceandleather OMG I'm in tears...

Awww don't be :( I really am doing a lot better. I'm not depressed anymore, and I don't want to kill myself anymore...

...will you help me someday?

What's wrong :(

Where do I start? Lots of stress from having to have only +90% in grades, parents who believed in beating, two close friends who died of cancer, one who committed suicide, two more with family problems of their own and I happen to be in the middle, having to practice 3 instruments a day, with a total of 3-4 hours of practice a day (when am I supposed to do homework?), paranoia and mental illness, being betrayed by those I though cared about me, dying family members, depressed mother, the regular bullying, and other VERY personnal and detailed problems I'd rather not talk about.

Wow. I don't even know where to being. I'm so so sorry. I wish I could give you a hug.

You just be happy and stay happy, because that would make me happy, and maybe someday everyone might be happy :)

Unlikely. You need treatment. A problem shared is not a problem halved. Medication is the only thing that works for the most severe cases of Depression. Plus many people have to try multiple antidepressants before they find one that works; although the majority never find a drug that works for them. However your circumstances seem to be the main cause of your low mood and it is likely that you will feel better when those circumstances are removed. Strip it down to the basics. Cut out the instruments unless you enjoy it. Get out of the house instead. Go to your GP. Cut out friendships which are not really friendships. Pay to see a psychiatrist, or talk to a school counsellor for free. Avoid behaviours which make you feel worse. Get at least eight hours sleep a night. Eat healthily. Accept that you may have an illness that needs treatment, then get the treatment. Prozac is the most common antidepressant used in adolescents. If that doesn't work, try other SSRI's.

I don't like to resort to drugs... I think I'm a little too young.