I know i wasn't a sociopath. I know I'm not. Angsty teen? Probably. Deifinitly.

And while I did suppress my emotions, I've lost the extremes. I cant get in a fit of rage, but I can get angry. I can't cry, but i can be sad.

I’d like to be robotic. It seems much easier.

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How old are you? I became robotic once. It turned out I just had severe depression.

_i or Me?

Why not both?

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Alright Leaf, I see how it is.

What can I say Connor.

Who the hell is Connor?

Connor Murphy

I don't get it

We talked about this earlier. You remind me of Connor Murphy from Dear Evan Hansen.

Whats the point of solving a mystery when you know the answer??

Isn't it much easier to deal with bullshit when you're not angry or sad about it? It is in my experience. It's just this resigned acceptance that everything sucks, and it's too tiring to have to actually get angry about it.

You can still just accept things without emotion and still have them.

Can you really? Because I can't. I can DO things without really showing emotion because I'm not an emotionally out-of-control shit, but I'm still pissed and spiteful the whole time I do it.

That's step one. You're doing it already!
Step two: greet every unpleasant event with and internal dialogue of "whatever" i find a bland, neutral, and slightly exasperated inner tone helps.

You'll still feel, but you'll ignore it.