tarotnathers13th · 2 weeks ago
Well, when it does, a good friend said that some form of chocolate helps. Ice cream, milk or dark, fudge, brownies, hot chocolate etc. But in all seriousness humans aren't perfect. Think of this as a swell on the waves rocking the boat. If you need to rest or to take some time to relax, don't feel guilty for doing so. Everyone needs time putting things back into order, no matter how they do it.
parisqeen · 2 weeks ago
I agree^ You can't expect yourself to be okay all the time, so please be kind to yourself you're doing your best. You had an entire month feeling good which is fantastic! And you'll have another month or maybe more feeling good again, first you have to push through this hard part. If you have a therapist or even a doctor, I would try and talk to them about it, maybe there's a pattern they can help you recognise. Sometimes however, there isn't a pattern and it's just something that happens, this is when I like to create a "care kit" or something similar when you're feeling good to prepare for a depressive episode. It can be a physical box with; candles in it, books you like, games, a diary, drawing essentials, snacks, kind notes you've written to yourself or ones people have written to you, bath bombs, objects that hold a happy memory etc. Anything that can comfort you. These strategies won't stop the depression but it will help you manage it until you're feeling better.
parisqeen · 2 weeks ago
The main thing is to not blame yourself. It's tiring but you're so resilient, allow yourself to cry and feel sad but try not to feel anger or guilt for feeling this way. Let us know when you want to talk, when you need a friend, when you just want someone to listen or anything else because we're always here for you. We love you very much Savage.
savage_demmigod · 2 weeks ago
You're right... those are some really good pointers. I can't help but feel angry when it starts up again but I guess I just have to remember that it's not me I'm angry at because the depression isn't me it's something i live with
Still, it's hard dealing with this much pain out of nowhere. Being sad is one thing but full blown depression episodes just take everything out of me
I really appreciate the perspective though
Thank you for that guys
savage_demmigod · 2 weeks ago
[Not gonna lie, started crying again when reading your message]
parisqeen · 2 weeks ago
Exactly, it's like this little blob that sits on your shoulder and occasionally it just gets too heavy. To hold that blob all the time takes some effort, so you have to put it down now and again which can hurt. You enjoy drawing right? (I know you're good at it) maybe a drawing a day will help, like a visual diary, even if the drawing is sad it can help you get that feeling onto paper. Also, if you would like, we can start another chat where everybody writes something they love about you, so you can print it off and keep them in a jar to read when you need a reminder that you're loved. It's up to you and what you think will personally help.