my heart got crushed by my ex finance

How?

we got in a fight and broke up then he killed his self

Gee that’s awful :( sorry for your loss

Killed himself?

I am sorry that happened. Can you talk to a counselor? It sounds like you are blaming yourself a bit, but if you talk to someone you might find out that it was less to do with you and more to do with what was going on in your fiancee's mind. I know it can hurt a lot when someone close to you dies tragically like this, but you can get through it and learn how to be okay again. I promise.

I agree with jasonmon. This is something huge tbh and it is best that you don't blame yourself and you're not forever broken...we cannot really assess the situation with the info you provided but we know it must have hurt you tons...so just atleast take care of yourself

I also agree with jasonmon

okay

Counselling/therapy can be expensive
If you struggle to afford it you could always write out what happened to you and your thoughts about it
No kidding; I've written literally tens of thousands of words this year about my difficult experiences (not that they were as bad as a partner killing themselves) and I'm noticeably less anxious and stressed after the writing

okay thank you

i wrote it all down and i want to think you because it really helped me.

i wrote it all down and i want to think you because it really helped me.

Good for you, I'm glad to hear it

okay

i want to thank all of yall for helping me get through a rough time of my life

i want to thank all of yall for helping me get through a rough time of my life

I'm glad you are feeling better. Some days you'll be more sad or happy than other days. It doesn't mean you are breaking again, it just means you are continuing to heal.
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Please reach out any time; we have your back.

okay i wil and thank you

okay i wil and thank you