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I know guests are given very little regard here and no one will probably see this anyway but I kind of feel like I want to say something anyway. When I was 11 my mom was kidnapped. I kind of went through my early teen years without her. I had to move in with a family member who was borderline emotionally abusive. She escaped from kidnappers and miraculously she found me. but the stuff they did to her. she wasn't ever really the same. It kind of changed me too. to my friends I'm confident and controlled and funny even popular at school. but when I'm alone I'm a paranoid bundle of nerves. I feel like she's going to vanish again sometimes. I feel like I have to be perfect or she will go away. I'm the captain of 2 sports teams at school and I have to always make the honour roll and look pretty and be perfect. Sometimes I don't even no why I just break down in my room when I'm by myself and I scream at my reflection and in bed sometimes I wake unable to breathe because I'm not perfect.