Jesus car

Just chill (probably) xD
We hung out at prom, and he mentioned it then, but we met up and he asked if i wanted to go on a date with him
He's a total dork, it was sweet xD

Haha we'll see how it goes xD

Haha, you're very nosey huh?

I don't mind, I'll tell you all the details!

Whaaaaaaat

That's amazing! I'm so happy for you two!

Haha thanks! I'm really excited!
I've spoken with HIM (:/) a few times lately btw

It's really odd
Like, he messages me first, but is REALLY blunt and weird
He told our mate that we're gonna try to be friends
Even tho I told him I didn't want to
So idk what's happening

It's weird
Idk if I want to be friends with him, but I can't not talk to him
If that makes any sense?

I didn't tell you
I had to speak to the police again today about the incident with Lore a few months ago
It's so annoying that it keeps being dragged up

I uh
Kinda took the blame for it
So I sort of am

I have no idea tbh
The very worst thing that could happen is that I'd "technically" be a sex offender
And he already has a criminal record (I think)
So I did it for him

Idk, I think it's too late to change the story so much

Haha I don't think anyone can help, thanks tho
On a lighter note
It's my date later!

Yaaaaasssssss

Red lacey shirt and black skinny jeans

Haha hopefully
I try to impress

I haven't been this excited in ages!

Thanks! Hopefully I don't fuck things up

I can't be chill
I'm freaking out

I am not cute enough!
F U C K
Kill me pls

Goddammit
Fine

So
Is the wedding still going ahead? :D

Wooooooo
Have you planned anything for it yet?

That's so cute! Aaaaahhhhh

Oh dayam
Keep your cool!

Not long til he can embrace you in those heavenly arms!

Better than I am
You've seen me xD

I don't even know what I am
But I'm probably heavier

Haha sure
But yeah, idk why he does this to me

Thanks for the link
Wow, that makes sense

He said he still cares about me
W h y doesn't he get that it hurts when he's says stuff like that

Exactly
If he's not gonna do anything about us, don't say that shit

It was cute
I got a kiss on the cheek at the end of it too haha

We're both dorks, so the first date wasn't exactly gonna be NSFW xD

Most of my ex's have been dorks haha
And yeah, he said he really wants to see me again

Ugh idk

Idk if I want toooooooo

You probably know more than I know myself

Everyone knows what I want, but can't have
So I've got to think about what to do

Glad someone does

Ooh sexy

Very
How's life been?

Decent too
Anything exciting happened?

Oh shit, I hope you'll be okay
I won't ask, in case it's too personal

I've had my fair share of surgeries haha
You'll be absolutely fine :)

Jesus Christ
You made me choke on my tea XD

"Mysterious death disease"
You kill me xD

I'm too frail and weak from this "disease" ya know

The only thing I'm dying from is laughter because of your comments

Or so I say..

DUN DUN

That is one of my faves oml

I've been watching that all day!

REID
ALL THE WAY

REID IS TOO PURE FOR SEXY TIMES

OKAY YEAH
THAT IS ADORABLE

STAHP MY HEART CAN'T TAKE IT

SHIPS CONTROL MY LIFE

Hi
What's up?

It's okay
Haha it's my fault anyways
He's the good guy here

Both of us made mistakes
But he did something, and it just tipped me over the edge
I initiated the break up
It was a very complicated break up

Nope
Cos I totally regret doing that
Btw can you delete your comment on let's chat yo?

Thank you
Only a few people know I'm here
It depends on what Lore decides
I gave him a decision to make
So ye

Yeah I won't bore you with the details
Cos I doubt you want to know that much
But if you speak to him, don't blame him
It was my fault tbh

We haven't spoken properly in weeks (the only time we had private convos was when we were arguing)
He hasn't told me he loves me in weeks
He told me I make him depressed when he talks to me, which is why we haven't spoken
We both agreed to work on our problems
But it seemed like he thought I could solve my problems all of a sudden, then apparently I expected him to talk to me all of a sudden
He kept saying I was assuming things all the time
It seemed like he was losing interest in me tbh
Then he blocked me on fb
So I broke up with him because I felt so guilty I made him feel annoyed and depressed all the time, and a few other things

Oh no no, I don't blame him at all
I'm definitely not the easiest person to love

Honestly
The break up was for him
Not for me
I wanted to stay with him
And he told me afterwards he wanted to stay with me too
It's complicated

Oh
You're talking to him?
I was willing to move tbh, I don't have any ties here

I'm guessing he told you he doesn't want to get back with me?

Ffs
I want him back
I told him that multiple times during our break up

That's why I broke up with him
I felt too guilty that I made him feel like that.
I might leave my new account too
I can't watch him moving on and talking about a new gf when that happens
Does he know I've got a new account?

I doubt he'd check your comments tho?
Yeah, if he doesn't want to be with me (which I assume he doesnt)
I'm leaving

Yeah
I'm gonna leave
He's gonna realise he doesn't want to be with me
And I won't be able to resist trying to talk to him

I might just have a clean break, no looking back ya know?

You're a good mate too
Shame it turned out like this

You can tell him I have a new account if you want, I guess
And who knows
The future is unpredictable

Yuki told me off when I told him I was leaving, so I guess I won't XD
You stay badass too

Call me sassy if you want, it's my nickname irl anyways

Ah
He got my hopes up again
He told yuki he would think about it, and made it sound like he would want me back
Haha here comes the crying again :/

Honestly this website is was kinda keeps my mind off things.
I was kinda looking forward to hearing "I love you" on my bday
I can't remember the last time I heard that, my parents don't even say it anymore soooo

6th july
So a little less than 2 weeks away

NO YOU ARE NOOT

I WILL LEAVE

YOU DO NOOT KNOW WHERE I AM
Are you still talking to him?

Not at all
Just tell him
I won't ever try to contact him
And I won't blame him whatever choice he makes about things

lol I'll probably end up dead by the time I'm 30
But yeah
Thanks
You too!

Nooooothingggggg

Dead as a dodo

Don't worry your pretty little head about lil ol me

I'll keep you guessing about that one eh?

It's not gonna kill me
..Yet

How does that's work?

ANSWER YOU WHAT

It's cute you care so much

It's called..

Prepare to be disappointed then

I don't
I luuuuurrrrvveeee yaaaaa

You already are!
Aren't you getting married??
Or is that me misunderstanding what you said in a chat?

OH MY GOD
CONGRATULATIONS MEEEEEEEEEEP!!!!

I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU!
YOU'LL BE A BEAUTIFUL BRIDE!

How've you been lately?

YIIIIISSSSS DOOOOO IIIIITTTT

I'm glad to hear it!
And I'm sure you're a great looking couple :)

I'm 5'1, and an ex of mine was like 6'2, so I understand XD

It was.. interesting
He picked me up to kiss me half the time XD

I felt like a little kid XD
Oooh yes, that is a risk!
At least he can catch you with his muscly arms when you faint!

Awww, I'm glad you're so happy!

Uh
I'm fine

I'm glad I was so convincing

lol I can spill if you want
I just didn't wanna ruin your happy mood!

Ok so
I had an induction day at college today
And I met this REALLY cute guy
We hit it off, I was all flirty
I thought it would take my mind off.. ya know
And I was all cheerful during the conversation
As soon as it finished, I ran into the bathroom and started crying
Very bittersweet

I'm not looking for a relationship
And haha I doubt it, but thanks XD

It's all filters xD
I bet you're gorgeous!

Fabulous!
And I will admit N O T H I N G

I'll post a pic of me at prom
That will prove you wrong!

I WILL LOOK LIKE A GODDAMN POTATO

HAHA OKAY
THAT MADE ME GIGGLE

I needed a giggle today
It would be our 4 month anniversary
It might not seem like anything to you
But I still feel down

Haha I really should've moved on by now tbh
He's probably banging some other chick by now XD

Haha nope
He never saved any pictures of me

I saved all his selfies and took screenshots of our convos.. :/

Oh, they're already gone
He was my lockscreen too

My first ever pony, she was euthanised a few weeks ago

It's okay, it's what was best for her

I still have two doggos, so it's okay!
I would've had my other horses, but that's complicated..

It sucks old wrinkly balls
Yellow labs, brother and sister :)

They're adorable!

My fam have had yellow labs for like 38 years now, it's a tradition I guess

My old lab was related to a few of my nans' old labs

I like anything that could show me even a little love XD

Yes, you can't leave xD

See, I can be a nice person XD

I'm a bitch ya fuckin weapon

Well I'm a jackass ya fuckin noob

I'm a dork ya fuckin infidel

I'm a potato ya fuckin snozberry

I'm a fruit loop ya fuckin tosspot

I'm crunchy nut ya fuckin wankstain

I'm pure edge ya fuckin squib

I'm Donald Trump ya fuckin muffin

I'm Harry Styles ya fuckin plonker

I'm the President ya fuckin snake

I'm the Universe ya fuckin banana

I'm your brother ya fuckin solo teste

I'm your pancreas ya fuckin shit sniffer

I'm respiratory failure ya fuckin haemorrhoids

I'm 4chan ya fuckin toe jam

I'm the darknet ya fuckin ear wax

I'm a boggart ya fuckin weeb

I'm he who shall not be named ya fuckin whippersnapper

I'm Grindelwald ya fuckin pin head

I'm Becky ya fuckin waifu

I'm Patrick ya fuckin fruitcake

I'm Sparta ya fuckin shitstain

I'm Katniss Everdeen ya fuckin snapped twig

I'm Draco Malfoy ya fuckin rope burn

DID YOU
YIIIISSSS

Yiiissssssss
Hello there!

We aren't talking
Why would you say that?

Oh that
Yeah he knows it's me haha
I don't want to talk to him anymore tho

All I want is him back
Other guys have showed interest in me (it was my prom the other day)
And all I could think about was him

I guess
Tbh I couldn't enjoy myself that much
There's a pic on my profile if you wanna see

Lmao no
But thank you!

WHY ARE YOU LYING
And sure

UGH
FINE
That sucks, it's not all it's cracked up to be tho

I got like 7 numbers and 5 snapchat names

Nah, pretty sure it's because you could see most of my boobs lmao
How old were you in seventh grade?

Oh dear
That's kinda creepy

That's a bit better then haha
Btw
I'm talking to Lore in private rn :/

He did
I'm not enjoying it

I'm so fuckin confused

Haha it's okay
I got myself into this mess

There isn't
I've just gotta wallow in self pity

Less than a week til my bday yoooooo

WHAT ARE YOU PLANNING

Ok
From what he's told you
Do you think he'd ever get back together with me?

How do I do that??
I really need your help
It's urgent atm

Okay
Thank you!
Imma try

HE SAID HE WANTS TO DELETE HIS ACCOUNT
OMF

HE SAYS HE WANTS TO DELETE HIS FS ACCOUNT
HE JUST KEEPS SAYING SORRY FOR HURTING ME
WHAT DO I DO

OKAY
IVE TRIED
IDK HOW WELL THATS GONNA GO THO

This is what he's been saying
"No stop fucking saying that Sadie
It's my fault
I couldn't do what a man should do
I gave up
It's my fault
So hate me for it"
..
"I am admitting when i was wrong
It was MY fault
Don't blame yourself
I wasn't amazing
I'm not amazing
I'm just a kid with issues
More issues than a kid should have"

I said that
And he still said it's all his fault
Oml
Why is he so frustrating

Yeah feel free
This is what he just said..
"I like you Sadie
I'm not willing to go again because I'm not right for you
I'm not the type to chase after you
I'm not the type to be amazing or your hero or special person
I'm me and that's it
It's what I've known from the start
I'm not good enough"

They really seem to be going through a period of not feeling good enough. Believe me, I had that too.

I guess the only thing I can think of doing is just helping him feel better about himself. Long distance kinda makes people have a hole in their heart, he's probably struggling with that more than anything. I couldn't know for sure, but I would guess there might be more personal things too.

I always (or at least tried to) support when he said he felt like that
But he said part of the reason he gave up was when I used to feel like that

But thanks you two, it means a lot

Why would I be mad?
At least he's hearing that from someone else

I don't want to keep hanging on to "what ifs"
If he goes
I'm making myself move on

Whatever you do, make sure it's what you really want. Because long distance, no matter who you're with, can be hell on Earth

But it definitely can be more than worth it. I don't regret it one bit

Haha
I really thought I could persuade him

Nah you didn't
Thank you for trying

I'm so sorry!
I'll talk about something else..
Idk if I told you, but here we go
So at college I've taken animal care as a course
And the have the FLOOFIEST doggo ever!!
She's the sweetest baby
I'm so excited

Nah, we have to share her
But I get to work with her for hours everyday!
And there's tons of animals!
Hedgehogs, cats, Guinea pigs, etc..

Bae
Let's move to England

I'm taking 4 different courses
Because I apparently want to be constantly exhausted for the next 2 years

Hey, if you want, I can still talk to him. If you don't, thats totally cool, but I wanna make sure I'm not intruding or anything

Idk what you can do now, and I don't want to feel like a burden to you two

If I can't do much, that's fine. But, I at least want you to know that you are no burden. Her and I are both happy to help in any way we can!

Thank you! It's much appreciated!

Bleh
My grandad probably has cancer

Yeah, very

Doubtful
They said we should move him into a hospice asap

I'm gonna try
But I'm not gonna go while I'm still a blubbering mess
I need to be strong for him

I'm not strong xD
But thanks!
I just want to do what's best for him

But
I want soup

I lost my nan, who was my best friend, to cancer
And my mate had it when we were younger
So I'm not a stranger to all this

That's life for ya, just got to get on with it

That's a nice way of looking at it!

Thank you :)
Same goes for you!

Yaaassss
D O G G O

That's adorable
What a good boy

He's too busy making his mum proud as a service doggo

I'd want to take them all home xD

THEY'RE SELLING CHOCOLATES

Ah chocolate, I remember chocolate... I ALWAYS HATED IT

Oh shit
I'm a homewrecker

Yaaaassss

Okay I guess
What about you?

Yeah cause you're there lol

Yass

Awww
You two are adorable

*adorkable

Ayyyyy