What sadness is all about

That was always terrible. Second only to being mean or nasty to her while in a bad mood and regretting it for ages once I calmed down. My poor mother frequently got the full force of my wrath for no real reason and I feel bad about it to this day.

Aww I know. I hate that

I'm the one to always be good to her and it's tiring. And I don't mean it in a way where I'd wanna be mean, but that I *always* have to be happy and charming, because my siblings are always grumpy. I love my mom and I love to make her happy but I wish I could be grumpy sometimes...

Only when she was trying to be sweet and i didnt realize it until later. I always tried make it up to her.

....And she has just died