My parents are liek 'nonono you MUST become a doctor'
but then i want a job that is adventurous or something that gives you a thrill, not a job to be stuck in a office 24/7 ;-;
Honestly I'm in college and it scares me that what I'm doing right now is deciding the course that the rest of my life is going to take. Seriously I still rely on my mom doing my laundry how am I in any way at all mature enough to know what I should be doing to get the life I want.
You gotta chill a little bit man. You can always take other courses later, or do an apprenticeship, or whatever. The courses you take now aren't shackling you to a path, they're just laying out a course, and you can always change course. Also if it comes down it, just google how to do laundry, don't over think the small stuff.
Right with you. You want to hear something scary? I have to complete a three year undergraduate degree before formally pursuing Law at my university. In order to get accepted I need to complete and do exceptionally well in an LSAT exam (very hard to do), maintain my First Class Honours average, write a phenomenal application and undertake an interview (although the interview might be optional). And if I fail to do well in any of these categories, then I will fail to get into Law school. That means that the three years of undergrad were COMPLETELY FUCKING USELESS. I will have to start from scratch. Along with that, I will have to throw away my dream of completing a Bachelor of Civil Law at Oxford University (which I have been obsessed with for 11 years) during my Law degree (which can only be done at the current university I'm at). EVERYTHING IS ON THE LINE.
In the end, I'll probably neck myself. I HAVE NO IDEA what the future holds, I'm shit scared of failure and I cry every night.
See, you gotta chill a bit too. You're shooting for the stars, which is good, but you gotta accept that you might fall short. Work hard, stay confident, and if you fall short, you weren't cut out to climb quite as high as you wanted, and you move on from there. Also don't neck yourself, there's more to life than a law degree. That's just silly.
1#Clinical problems make things a hassle, I've been hospitalized 5 times over my obsession with success, due to some traumatic abuse I suffered when I was younger. I don't actually mind the OCD or any of my other mental disorders, they motivate me to work hard. I just fear that it will kill me someday, but changing is easier said than done. No one here is really in a position to tell me to just "accept it" since they have no idea who I am. It's quite an arrogant thing to say actually (please note, I'm not attacking you, but I'm sure that there are some very ignorant people on FS who have the audacity to tell me that I'm simply wrong). It's not that easy and I'm not willing to do anything about it ANYMORE since my severity is highly complicated. Many of my doctors just want me to live with it now and I'm happy to do that . People who suffer from OCD rarely want it to go away. It provides us with control over our lives...
2#My family is undoubtedly the most important thing in my life. I would die without them in a heartbeat. However, that doesn’t minimize the important of success. But hey, why am I trying to justify myself to a bunch of strangers on FS who know nothing of me, I just wanted to show the original commenter that I sympathize with his stress. So please, don't try to tell me what to fix. I've spent the past 15 years hearing it and I'm tired, very tired of it. I don't intend to be mean, I'm sure you have wonderful intentions and that's very kind of you, but it's simply not your place to say. I'm sorry, but comments like that can be VERY TRIGGERING to people like me. But it's okay, you didn't know I had OCD...know you do.
That's why I said it's up to you. If you want to spend the rest of your life high strung and fearing for your life because of it, that's up to you. And I don't mean that in any sort of ironic or rhetorical way. It really is up to you.
I'm sur you know what to fix if you ever decide to fix it. I was only confirming it for myself, really.
It's only really my place to say in that I'm on this comment section talking to you, but I (personally) don't really need any more reason than that. These are my opinions, nothing more.
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I kid, I kid. Although in all seriousness, I am terrified about the future.
but then i want a job that is adventurous or something that gives you a thrill, not a job to be stuck in a office 24/7 ;-;
In the end, I'll probably neck myself. I HAVE NO IDEA what the future holds, I'm shit scared of failure and I cry every night.
I'm sur you know what to fix if you ever decide to fix it. I was only confirming it for myself, really.
It's only really my place to say in that I'm on this comment section talking to you, but I (personally) don't really need any more reason than that. These are my opinions, nothing more.