This is literally every health issue I've ever had in my life ::: Oh, it seems I really appreciated life before crippling generalized anxiety disorder/depression/anorexia/my-mother-giving-birth-to me-and-hating-me-for-being-"fat"-disorder happened. I have to literally go back mentally to a before-I-was-5-years-old-and-counting-my-non-existent-fat-rolls state to reimagine when I didn't have these anxieties. And THAT is the life I didn't appreciate. (And, according to data, this is a fact of womanly life shocking only to men).
I just snort till blood comes(which happens a lot with me apparently)