Because joking about killing yourself is sooooooooooo cool. When will you stupid children learn that joking about offing yourself is not funny and can actually cause you to have real life-ending thoughts.
To anyone out there actually experienceing these feelings please reach out and get help. You aren't alone and your worth is bigger then you may be able to see.
the worse part of growing up smart was the issue that people look for you to fail. to many people looked for me to make a mistake. anytime i did i would be corrected and criticized and the other person would spend the day bringing it up and patting themselves on the back. that is the real burden. you are to be perfect if you are smart. you are meant to be infallible. the lasting result is that i spend so much time trying to get information. i feel i have to learn everything, because if i don't i know someone will bring it up just to make fun of me. that is why i always do better, try harder. once you get to a level, it is expected of you. though, killing yourself isn't smart, talking about killing yourself isn't smart. it is the result of someone who can't figure out any other option. if you are smart, if you are strong, move on from that, you are better than that.
DAMMIT
To anyone out there actually experienceing these feelings please reach out and get help. You aren't alone and your worth is bigger then you may be able to see.