Depression

But I have to ask... which side really is me?
When I "become myself again," is it really when I walk in the light or when I am robed in darkness?

Its been about four years
Four years of unwillingness
Four years that I haven't been myself
Four years that I didn't want to get out of bed
A few months ago, I realized that what I'm going through is called depression
I haven't told anyone, but from what I've seen, this site is ridiculously supportive and has helped me immensely. the DDOGV to the DDOL and every positive post in between, I'd like everyone to know how much better I've been thanks to this site and the people on it
Thank you all for making me just a little better, post by post

I have depression which is intensified by my OCD. Basically I spend all day everyday over analyzing my thoughts. My obsessions are being a pedophile and being a zoophile. Every day, I force myself to imagine having sex with children and animals to gauge my own response. It's torture, but I can't stop. I have no know I'm not evil. But, every time, I convince myself I reacted "incorrectly". I can't be around dogs or kids because I just have intrusive thoughts. I'm afraid I'll just snap or something and hurt them. My life is a literal living hell.

This is indeed a gorgeous comic, it's a comfort when others can put your experiences and emotions into words or pictures.
Those who are struggling, myself included I suppose, keep pushing through your grey days and everyone here is a community that will love and support you even when you feel like no body else will. You have the power to overcome depression, or at least to lessen it, keep fighting.
Love you all immensely x

This describes how I feel so well. I feel like no one understands me when I try to explain it to them. Thank you for sharing so I know I am understood by someone.