It keeps me from saying things I can't take back.
With loved ones I filter my self when I am angry.
I never once told the aunt who made me deadly and self harmingly afraid of Mayo that she is the reason.
I never told my aunt GG the reason I like her the least is because I know she ruined her parents home and run it into the ground literally there are rooms where you can step right on to the dirt under the boards. And rooms filled with garbage.
I never told my 2nd youngest brother that no one in our family likes him let alone loves him anymore. We all just pity any girl who gets trapped with him. And I haven't told him that when mom and dad almost got a divorce it was because of him. They were separated for a yr almost. My parents even got papers signed. It was my oldest brother who took him in so my parents wouldn't split up.
I don't tell my childhood friend that the reason I know where she is and she doesn't know where I am is because she is to much drama and with my husbands extreme anxiety I have enough drama to deal with.
I do all this all because when I talk to people I don't want to hurt them. I don't want them to feel pain. So I hold my mouth shut when I can't filter.
In other words
If I argue with someone and I go quite they didn't "win" the argument. I just rather not say what I really feel because what I really feel is not who I am. Who I am is what I say not what I think.
With loved ones I filter my self when I am angry.
I never once told the aunt who made me deadly and self harmingly afraid of Mayo that she is the reason.
I never told my aunt GG the reason I like her the least is because I know she ruined her parents home and run it into the ground literally there are rooms where you can step right on to the dirt under the boards. And rooms filled with garbage.
I never told my 2nd youngest brother that no one in our family likes him let alone loves him anymore. We all just pity any girl who gets trapped with him. And I haven't told him that when mom and dad almost got a divorce it was because of him. They were separated for a yr almost. My parents even got papers signed. It was my oldest brother who took him in so my parents wouldn't split up.
I do all this all because when I talk to people I don't want to hurt them. I don't want them to feel pain. So I hold my mouth shut when I can't filter.
In other words
If I argue with someone and I go quite they didn't "win" the argument. I just rather not say what I really feel because what I really feel is not who I am. Who I am is what I say not what I think.