Don't ever forget that depression is a real sickness, and that you can be treated for it. Some people say it's just all in your head but don't believe them because there is help out there, and there are always people out there that care about you if you just want to talk about it too.
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· 9 years ago
Just because I feel like it, and because I'm so fucking sick of feeling alone, with nowhere to go and no one to talk to, I'm going to try to put the feelings of depression and the false hope it brings into a physical image (or at least how it feels to me)...
It's like seeing the world in a mirror, only the mirror makes everything a bit brighter. You can see hope - hope for happiness, finally, after all the pain and heartbreak. You finally think 'maybe it's finally over; maybe I'm finally okay....'
Then the mirror smashes, and you're left alone, in the dark. You look down at yourself, your eyes straining to see. Your heart is thumping and your mind is racing, but at the same time, you feel like nothing's happening inside you at all; like you're a complex series of cogs and wheels that have suddenly stopped and frozen, with nothing to do and nowhere to go anymore. A heavy, numb ache settles itself inside you, and you try desperately to push it out, out, OUT, anywhere but inside you -
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· 9 years ago
but it's stuck there for good. It's found a place it wants to be, and it won't go away now. The odds are stacked against you.
You pick up a shard of the mirror and begin to toy with it, feeling its sharp edges and its smooth face. The image is still there, as though frozen in time. But it's shattered now, and it can't quite be put back together.
A tear rolls down your cheek, and you're left with one thought as you fall back into a pit, your stomach lurching -
'What did I ever do?'
Downvote me if this sucks or if it's too 'emo' or whatever....nothing I do is good enough anyway.....
Sometimes I just want to curl up and cry, but there's still a little glimmer of hope for the future, yeah? And I don't want to ruin that by screwing up now even more than I already have....
Just keep swimming....
It's like I either feel alone or I don't really feel much of anything at all.
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· 9 years ago
For me, I constantly feel like I've 'snapped out of it' after being told to so many times, then something stupid, like my crush not laughing at one of my jokes or my friend just nodding and smiling when I say something to her make me feel awful and like nobody likes me again. It's like a bad day on repeat.
I try to be nice to everyone just because I don't want them to feel like I do but I constantly screw up and everything's past repair now...
And I feel like this every day.
At school we have this lesson called 'character wellbeing' and we study things like hope and positivity and that shit. Today in this class we were looking at happiness. For the entire lesson the teacher goes 'it's simple to be happy, just look at things differently and brighten up a bit'. I have never wanted to just break down and cry more than in that lesson. It's not that simple.
(Sorry guys i just need to vent for a bit)
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· 9 years ago
Ugh....see, that might be true for the non-depressed among us, but it's not true for actual mental disorders. Being negative and being depressed are two different things - a change of mindset won't cure depression.
The teacher sounds like they taught you so much about HOW to actually think about things differently....*cough*
So true... Tho there's always light if there's the choice to look and courage to follow it. The dark place can't be described to those who haven't been there so it's those that have been there and have moved forward that can help others. For others in this place, if you can type it, speak it. X
Could uh, could we please stop posting things like this? It's just that these kind of posts are really just kind of popping up ALOT. and I'm kinda getting annoyed so if we could please stop posting these (or at least slow down) that'd be great
Well, on FS there's a talk section that we can put this stuff in. And yeah, if they sort it that way before they post it, the people who have talk unchecked on their All page don't need to see it.
This stuff is a serious problem. You can't just say this, guys deal with these things too bro. Garlog, just a comment like that could have sent someone off the edge. Please don't do that.
@thatsnotsoraven
You say that, yet you've comment on my doing so 3 times so far.
@anonymoushobbit
Off the edge of what? Suicide? Some sort of tantrum or panic attack? Either way I have no problem with weak-minded people being "triggered" by what I say.
@frostbite
Of course lots of people dislike me. The greater the things you do, the more enemies you will make.
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· 9 years ago
No, the more retarded and shitty things you do, the more enemies you will make
Okay just to get it put of the way, you ARE a douchebag. This COULD send someone over the edge, you insensitive jerk. Get your head put of your ass and start being nice to people.
Besides, if you don't care who your words hurt, you disgust me. You could drive someone to suicide with the hurtful things you say or type, and you don't even care.
"Okay just to get it put of the way, you ARE a douchebag."
You are welcome to your opinion.
"This COULD send someone over the edge, you insensitive jerk."
I never denied this.
"Get your head put of your ass and start being nice to people."
...am I supposed to be intimidated by this or something?
"Besides, if you don't care who your words hurt, you disgust me."
Again, you are welcome to your opinion.
"You could drive someone to suicide with the hurtful things you say or type, and you don't even care. "
If people want to kill themselves, I'm fine with that. It's their choice.
Why the hell wouldn't you care? That's someone's blood on your hands as well as your own. And I'm just confused as to why you don't give a shit about the things you say and not caring who it could hurt.
Because people who let the words of strangers hurt them in any significant way are fucking stupid. Either that or they're unreasonably thin-skinned. Either way its their choice, I didn't shoot someone or ram a knife through their throat. I'm not at fault, therefore I don't give a shit.
How DARE you?! How dare you call suicidal people stupid!! You don't know ANYTHING about them, you don't know how fucking far they've been driven. And you ARE partially at fault, look at the way you act! You make me SICK.
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· 9 years ago
I'd say those who intentionally hurt the sensitive are the more stupid among us, but whatever floats your boat.
How dare I? I'm pretty sure I explained myself quite well. I only called people who let the words of strangers hurt them in any significant way stupid. There a lot more things than that that can make someone suicidal. It's starting to look like maybe you're the one that doesn't understand the nature of a suicidal mindset. And how does your perception of the way I act imply fault?
Also, I don't intentionally hurt sensitive people, I just don't constantly walk on egg shells for their sake.
I know. It still really bothers me when someone talks about suicidal people like this, though. Like a lot. And I hate bullies and I hate douchey people
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· 9 years ago
Ehh....I've honestly got nothing better to do, since I'm at school done with my work, and at least if I disagree maybe someone else who looks at this will too.
I totally get it, potter, but I think you'd be better off if you left this guy to his idiocy. He's just trying to start shit and you're too awesome to have to deal with it. :)
I've actually had people in real life tell me this kind of thing to my face (depressed people are just too weak, etc etc), and a lot of them genuinely meant it....tell me, why do people think this way?
Cause they're ignorant. They haven't been through it and they think it's okay to talk about things they don't understand as if they do. Btw, I hope you punched them lol
I don't know, and I don't like it. It pisses me off so much, because I told someone my story, and he said "not even a lot of adults can handle half that, and you're still alive. That's amazing." If depressed people are weak, then I'm Santa Claus.
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· 9 years ago
I'm against violence and unwilling to get suspended for the sake of violence, but I definitely did glare at them for a long time before asking them what the fuck was wrong with them :')
I've been depressed for a long time and wouldn't consider myself weak, I've just had a lot to deal with in a short space of time so got stressed....I still kept going (after trying to kill myself and ending up in hospital, but that's another story). It pisses me off so much when people tell me that all depressed people are weak or freaks....
Same. I've never tried to kill myself but I have depression and have done other things and still do from time to time. It really infuriates me when others talk about and shit on depressed people because they just don't get it. And it makes it worse when they're serious (but I don't think this jerk is). Depressed people might not be the strongest at times, but we're not weak.
"Oh, /I/ don't understand what being suicidal feels likes, even after I tried it four times? Sure, sure. I don't get it. Fuck off."
Hey, I don't know you as a person, I'm just inferring things based off of what you type.
"Not walking on egg shells is different from intentionally insulting them."
Indeed it is, and I do the former, not the latter.
Also, I find it odd that I have to keep repeating this, but I didn't call depressed people weak, I called people who let the words of strangers hurt them in any significant way stupid/weak.
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· 9 years ago
No, saying 'obviously typed by a woman' is NOT avoiding walking on egg shells. It's mindlessly insulting people just for the sake of it.
@thatsnotsoraven
I think your getting that turn of phrase a little mixed up there, but I assume you mean that I intentionally insulted people. I did not, unless typing like a woman is an insult where your from, which just sounds sexist to me.
@gottalovepotter
"Besides. You're no better or worse than the rest of us. Just another person."
Indeed.
Garlog. What you are saying is actually quite hurtful. I have never tried suicide, but I think about if constantly. You can't just come in here and say this stuff about people when you (and I'm just assuming here) haven't even experienced these feelings for youself. This stuff is NOT funny or to be joked about. So how about you just piss off and keep your hurtful comments to yourself.
What in my last post was hurtful?
Why can't I come in here and say "this stuff", when I'm a free thinking individual with a right to my own opinion?
When did I joke about anything?
Where should I piss of to, like away from my computer or something? Or are you just suggesting I stop replying to this string of comments?
Okay. I think you should go troll somewhere else now. We all know you're full of shit, and if you're actually serious, well then that really sucks for you.
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· 9 years ago
Garlog, you sir, are a maximum, level 100, top rank prestige,
@calmthelovelytits
Even if I were trolling, why would I stop as long as people were still responding? And it really doesn't suck for me, because I'm not wasting my time tip-toeing around everyone's feelings, while you, apparently, are. I'm much happier for it.
@not_illuminati
You are welcome to your opinion as well.
We are not "tiptoeing around everyone's feelings" we are being considerate, and from personal experience, I know people appreciate it because for certain people even the smallest comment could be hurtful. And some of us here are actually aware of that and try to be kind so as to not let anyone get hurt.
"We are not "tiptoeing around everyone's feelings" we are being considerate"
Yes, these are obviously not the same thing at all.
"people appreciate it"
Yeah, of course they appreciate it. There's no way I would ever be considerate if people didn't appreciate it, but that has nothing to do with me not giving a shit about the feelings of strangers.
... But you /should/ give a shit. This person is somebody's brother or sister, son or daughter.
Would it be that hard to just be a bit considerate of others? Even if they are a stranger.
@anonymoushobbit
It's not hard, it's just a little tedious, and I'm not concerned with it.
@calmthelovelytits
But I'm happy with it, so why does it suck for me?
@not_illuminati
I invite you to point out where I actually said that because, to my knowledge, I haven't.
@calmthelovelytits
Indeed.
@thatsnotsoraven
It's always been an actual argument. One that I continue to argue.
Because it's my reality.....
last night was so bad aksjfbdland
are you alright?
Life: "Wait a sec..."
It's like seeing the world in a mirror, only the mirror makes everything a bit brighter. You can see hope - hope for happiness, finally, after all the pain and heartbreak. You finally think 'maybe it's finally over; maybe I'm finally okay....'
Then the mirror smashes, and you're left alone, in the dark. You look down at yourself, your eyes straining to see. Your heart is thumping and your mind is racing, but at the same time, you feel like nothing's happening inside you at all; like you're a complex series of cogs and wheels that have suddenly stopped and frozen, with nothing to do and nowhere to go anymore. A heavy, numb ache settles itself inside you, and you try desperately to push it out, out, OUT, anywhere but inside you -
You pick up a shard of the mirror and begin to toy with it, feeling its sharp edges and its smooth face. The image is still there, as though frozen in time. But it's shattered now, and it can't quite be put back together.
A tear rolls down your cheek, and you're left with one thought as you fall back into a pit, your stomach lurching -
'What did I ever do?'
Downvote me if this sucks or if it's too 'emo' or whatever....nothing I do is good enough anyway.....
Just keep swimming....
I try to be nice to everyone just because I don't want them to feel like I do but I constantly screw up and everything's past repair now...
At school we have this lesson called 'character wellbeing' and we study things like hope and positivity and that shit. Today in this class we were looking at happiness. For the entire lesson the teacher goes 'it's simple to be happy, just look at things differently and brighten up a bit'. I have never wanted to just break down and cry more than in that lesson. It's not that simple.
(Sorry guys i just need to vent for a bit)
The teacher sounds like they taught you so much about HOW to actually think about things differently....*cough*
we could put them in talk, you can change your All page, and the people who are wanting or needing help can get it. :) win win.
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Sorry.
You say that, yet you've comment on my doing so 3 times so far.
@anonymoushobbit
Off the edge of what? Suicide? Some sort of tantrum or panic attack? Either way I have no problem with weak-minded people being "triggered" by what I say.
@frostbite
Of course lots of people dislike me. The greater the things you do, the more enemies you will make.
Besides, if you don't care who your words hurt, you disgust me. You could drive someone to suicide with the hurtful things you say or type, and you don't even care.
You are welcome to your opinion.
"This COULD send someone over the edge, you insensitive jerk."
I never denied this.
"Get your head put of your ass and start being nice to people."
...am I supposed to be intimidated by this or something?
"Besides, if you don't care who your words hurt, you disgust me."
Again, you are welcome to your opinion.
"You could drive someone to suicide with the hurtful things you say or type, and you don't even care. "
If people want to kill themselves, I'm fine with that. It's their choice.
Also, I don't intentionally hurt sensitive people, I just don't constantly walk on egg shells for their sake.
I've been depressed for a long time and wouldn't consider myself weak, I've just had a lot to deal with in a short space of time so got stressed....I still kept going (after trying to kill myself and ending up in hospital, but that's another story). It pisses me off so much when people tell me that all depressed people are weak or freaks....
Ps
need anything, I'm here cx
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Hey, I don't know you as a person, I'm just inferring things based off of what you type.
"Not walking on egg shells is different from intentionally insulting them."
Indeed it is, and I do the former, not the latter.
Also, I find it odd that I have to keep repeating this, but I didn't call depressed people weak, I called people who let the words of strangers hurt them in any significant way stupid/weak.
I think your getting that turn of phrase a little mixed up there, but I assume you mean that I intentionally insulted people. I did not, unless typing like a woman is an insult where your from, which just sounds sexist to me.
@gottalovepotter
"Besides. You're no better or worse than the rest of us. Just another person."
Indeed.
Why can't I come in here and say "this stuff", when I'm a free thinking individual with a right to my own opinion?
When did I joke about anything?
Where should I piss of to, like away from my computer or something? Or are you just suggesting I stop replying to this string of comments?
Prick
Even if I were trolling, why would I stop as long as people were still responding? And it really doesn't suck for me, because I'm not wasting my time tip-toeing around everyone's feelings, while you, apparently, are. I'm much happier for it.
@not_illuminati
You are welcome to your opinion as well.
Yes, these are obviously not the same thing at all.
"people appreciate it"
Yeah, of course they appreciate it. There's no way I would ever be considerate if people didn't appreciate it, but that has nothing to do with me not giving a shit about the feelings of strangers.
Would it be that hard to just be a bit considerate of others? Even if they are a stranger.
Everyone else on the planet: WHY, WHO TAUGHT YOU THIS. I CANT FUCKING, WHO GAVE BIRTH TO YOU. WHO
It's just become a game now, not an actual argument. It's meaningless. Stop.
It's not hard, it's just a little tedious, and I'm not concerned with it.
@calmthelovelytits
But I'm happy with it, so why does it suck for me?
@not_illuminati
I invite you to point out where I actually said that because, to my knowledge, I haven't.
@calmthelovelytits
Indeed.
@thatsnotsoraven
It's always been an actual argument. One that I continue to argue.