There's a lake near my house with a dock that I like to go and sit on on sunny days. Sometimes I think it would be so easy to just walk off the edge and let myself sink.
no problem. It's pretty normal. I usually experience it when I'm driving. A lot of times I'll get the thought of "I could just swerve into oncoming traffic" or if I'm driving across a bridge I'll think about what would happen if I just hit the gas and drove off of it.
I remember one time I was emptying the dishwasher and my mom came in to start dinner and sniped at me for "being in her way", and at the time I was holding a large knife and I just stood there for a minute like "Bitch I could fucking stab you right now. I don't want to cuz I don't want to go to jail for murder, but piss me off and I could". I scare myself sometimes. I'm glad that the "call to the void" exists so I know I'm not just a raving psycho.
Yeah I know. I never even realized that I had these thoughts before until I saw Dan's video. I for some reason just didn't think about the fact that they were kind of psycho.
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I honestly just kind of accepted that I was a psycho and did my best to listen to my morals instead of my crazy urges
Yeah there's so much stuff that in the moment I want to do but realize I'd go to jail if I did it, like stabbing someone like you said, and also later on that that was a bad thought to have.
My fear is that the ground will give way or break off the building or whatever and I'll fall to my death. Yet it isn't the death I'm scared o,f it is the feeling of falling. I was told it is really the fear of having no control but I said oh no it is the feel of falling it makes me scared out of my mind to feel my body joilt and than feel the wind rushing past me. O god I got to stop I just pictured it.
I started having this problem when I was four and went to the white cliffs of dober. There's like no fence and I was like, "I could end my life." I mean I didn't, but I've been having existential crisises and having weird thoughts like that ever since.
Sometimes I like to look down and think how it would be like to feel the air surrounding me as I jump… I'm too curious for my own good.
I just want wings…
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I want to feel the thrill , the adrenaline of falling, like the one you feel in dreams.
https://youtu.be/U6nuxmV6Zko
Whoops
me: wtf I will die
brain: u gotta
I just want wings…
As an example getting a WiFi is what i want to do.