I'm going through some stuff right now... and it really hasn't been easy. The last couple of months, I've been suffering from depression and these kind of thoughts and it's been an up but mostly down rollercoaster... If I didn't have my two closest friends that I have now, I really wouldn't be here right now telling you all this. There is some light at the end of the tunnel, and even if it's only a little spark, it's still worth clinging on to. So don't give up hope, I certainly haven't.
Let's just say I'm glad that someone on the internet is happy I am here.
jk