Life motivation

always right before i'm going to bed

It's almost a pattern. It's up for a day, then it's down for a year.

I usually start running or working out when that strikes. Then I'm in too deep to quit if I change my mind.

This happens... but with painting. I'm set for the most part; house, money, company.... I cab travel whenever I want; if going out of the country I have to update my passport; but that's so freaking minor. There is one thing I wish for though; something I long for; someone to share it with. My grandma keeps me company; but she cant remember 20 minutes ago, let alone yesterday. It's almost like I'm wasting my time.... as much as a dick thing saying that is.