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What!?

I had a pretty screwed up childhood.

I'm sorry to hear that :(

Yeah I don't wanna be a Debbie Downer but kids can be suicidal from as young as 5, even without an understanding of death. Although extremely uncommon and usually done by the child without true knowledge that they're taking their own life it is still not unheard of.

I knew full well what I was doing, I just aimed wrong and my aunt found me before I could finish what I started. I really wanted to end my pain, I had just went through something no one should ever experience and it completely wrecked my psyche. I've never been the same since that, even after years of therapy I still really have no interest in any kind of relationships and I'm extremely protective of my child because I never want him to experience anything remotely close to what I did.

What is fuck's name happened to you?

Well let's just say, I had an uncle that thought the doctor didn't do a very good job 'down below' when I was born and said uncle tried to do a touch-up on a 7 year old. Thankfully it got interrupted by my dad and mom but not before some damage was done (they were outside and heard me scream) The asshole was killed in prison by a group of other criminals.

Im so sorry that happened to you. I send to you all the love and affection that 50mb/s can handle.