I also don't own a gun

Not sure that's what they were getting at.

i know.. but i choosed to ignore the suicidal ideas of the meme.. + some people are that scared while falling, that they have problems pulling the cord.. so i wanted to mention it

There is a fairly large difference between a fear of death and a fear of suicide. When I started recovering from suicidal depression I was rather scared that I was gonna end up killing myself not because i was afraid to die but because i was afraid of hurting my friends. I actively wanted death there was no fear of it there at all. I'd assume it would be exactly the same sorta thing here just on a different level