I'd kill myself. The biggest of my few cares is my looks and the hope I can look even better. I'm sure this could actually look quite sexy (The middle pic looks marvelous), it would completely inhibit reaching my person goals for myself.
To clear up any anger, I'm actually pretty carefree on the apprarance of others as I had people who looked past my own horrible looks when sleep deprivation, stress, and a few other factors that culminated to give me a decent impression of acne covered zombie. I just have my own ideals on what I want to look like. Thankfully, I'm closer to that ideal than ever, but I'm still very aware that looks don't matter past the surface.
On another note, does anyone know if I not sleeping correctly can permanently give me the purple marks under my eyes? I have constant sleep marks that are better, but they just seem so permanent. I remember only getting an hour or two of sleep per night six months ago or so, and they still haven't really vanished like I hoped they would.
IDK, I just read books where characters have permanent sleep marks because they didn't get enough sleep for a long time.
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· 6 years ago
I have permanent marks from my terrible sleeping habits.
I also have had sleeping problems my entire life. I think I actually have a differently timed bodily schedule that is closer to twenty-five hours. I can actually track the time I sleep slowly pushing forward from 10pm to 12pm and all the way to 3pm no matter how hard I try to sleep properly or how many sleeping pills I take.
Maybe I'll try to get something to track those times to see how exactly it's functioning.
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· 6 years ago
Oh my sleeping problems are all self-imposed. I stay up way too late all the time and then come home at 4 o'clock and immediately pass out.
In the lunar way, yea. That's because the Moon is also orbiting the Earth while we, the Earth, rotate. That causes it to have a bit more time due to it pushing forward. But our human cycle is usually a twenty-four hour day as the day-night cycle tends to average at twenty-four hours. And for the simple things we evolved to do (Wake around sunrise, move around for a bit, and then sleep for a while) doesn't need precision as much as a GPS (Run this for exactly 24 nanoseconds, adjust for the time dilation on Earth, and wait for 9 nanoseconds.)
To clear up any anger, I'm actually pretty carefree on the apprarance of others as I had people who looked past my own horrible looks when sleep deprivation, stress, and a few other factors that culminated to give me a decent impression of acne covered zombie. I just have my own ideals on what I want to look like. Thankfully, I'm closer to that ideal than ever, but I'm still very aware that looks don't matter past the surface.
IDK, I just read books where characters have permanent sleep marks because they didn't get enough sleep for a long time.
Maybe I'll try to get something to track those times to see how exactly it's functioning.