Very true. “But they can’t be depressed. I saw them at a party Saturday laughing and having a great time...” Yes. Depression isn’t always or seldom is a 24/7/365 thing. Depressed people can have happy moments or days- depression can come and go over long periods. While it can suck all the joy out of things you love and interactions with people you like (which can feed the depression as you feel horrible for feeling disconnected or not able to fully appreciate things you know you should), it can also just vanish all on its own and leave you happy as a clam- until it comes back and you then “fall” hard. It’s not a “bad mood” but a severe and profound feeling of sadness, pointlessness, doom, anxiety, etc. Depressed people smile and laugh and can walk by you everyday without you ever knowing. That’s one of the true dangers of depression.
Having and good life only makes depression worse.
I have a both mother and father and all the siblings who loves me, my friends ask me to hang out regularly and always call/text if something happens, I've never been starved in my entire life, everything is good.
So I should feel good right?
But I didn't, I felt miserable and as if every cells in my body were cursed.
If only something in my life were wrong then I would have known what to fix. But there wasn't, it's just me, I was the wrong thing.
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It's hard to feel empty in your mind and heart when you're busy trying to keep your stomach full.
Note: I'm all good (surprise! I got over myself!) So no biggie.
I don't think you'd likely be less depressed for your life going badly. That being said I do completely understand how frustrating it can be to want to fix something but you are the only thing wrong.
The problem is, if things are also going badly in your life, you often find you lack the motivation to fix them. Because depression.
I hope you're able to cope well and be happy. :)
I have a both mother and father and all the siblings who loves me, my friends ask me to hang out regularly and always call/text if something happens, I've never been starved in my entire life, everything is good.
So I should feel good right?
But I didn't, I felt miserable and as if every cells in my body were cursed.
If only something in my life were wrong then I would have known what to fix. But there wasn't, it's just me, I was the wrong thing.
.
It's hard to feel empty in your mind and heart when you're busy trying to keep your stomach full.
Note: I'm all good (surprise! I got over myself!) So no biggie.
The problem is, if things are also going badly in your life, you often find you lack the motivation to fix them. Because depression.
I hope you're able to cope well and be happy. :)