*puts my hands at 5 and 7 and lips at 6*

@catfluff

Good. I definitely don't want to add to anything you have going on. You tell me if I am, okay? I get that. I've done that too, and definitely do not like feeling like I've made someone feel insecure. I've been on the receiving end of it as well and understand
Yeah, or course. I have no doubt that you will be okay. I'm gonna worry about you haha. Shh don't tell xvarnah. I'll try my best. Be safe.

It is. I try to keep my head worrying about money. Well, that may not be true. I wrote some stuff here about money and my mom but deleted it. Just seemed like too much or something.
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I think you are right. It just seemed like the thing to do - take care of my mom.
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I don't like funerals either. It makes me uncomfortable. I planned it out and mad sure it was just a small group of people. That's what she said she wanted anyways. There were still people there I didn't know or hardly see. I guess it's nice for them to say bye to my mom or pay their respects or whatever. Yeah, I tried to get it out of the way as soon as possible.
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My cat is hiding under the bed and trying to attack me. He's a terrifying goofball

I'm the same with discord. I've maybe used it twice. I want to. I might message you. I'm not sure yet. I don't want to be the person to pile yet another thing on top of everything going on. So I may wait. I understand it's hard to keep up with people. Haha I think I've failed to respond in this thread before. Not intentionally, but things happen. Either way, I'm going to give you hug now *walks over to you and holds you*. Just breathe. Take it one step at a time. You'll get through this.
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And you better fucking take yourself, okay? Otherwise I'll umm have to fight you or something

Good. I'm glad they're okay. Yeah, money is...not a fun thing. Hopefully they can get it worked out. That adrenaline transition is kinda weird. Maybe they can heal quickly. I know driving afterwards can be somewhat intimidating
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I think you're right - about the survival mode. I hope so anyways. Rather than me not just being numb to things *starts stringing up safety nets all over the place*
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I'm ready to go home. My mom's funeral was today. It was nice, I think. I don't like the attention. People were treating me like some sort of saint for taking care of her while she was sick. It just feels a bit icky and I want to shake that feeling off like removing a layer clothes or something. I don't think that makes sense
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You're okay. Just be safe @xvarnah. Talk to me if you want to or just someone you trust

Doh, haha. I put "sexy mother f**ker" at first but then changed it and failed

I logged back into discord haha. You can talk to me there if you ever want

Though, I'm really ready to go back to my place.
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I is okay I think. Sad sometimes and okay with it. I haven't really cried or broke down. I don't know if it's the numbness or just she's been..yeah it's hard to explain. My nephew is doing well. Yeah, he's doing alright. Thank you for asking. How's your family? You getting any sleep?
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I get the website being a drain. Well, probably not as much as you given you are a lot more active on it. It's okay. Take a break from the site. You give so much to it. And if you don't come back, that's okay too (not that I'm saying you won't). I'd miss your ass though. Take care of yourself and I hope the person you know that was in a car accident is doing okay

Don't be sorry for not responding sooner. Im sorry to hear that. Are they okay? Are you okay?
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Yeah, I think I joined the discord at some point, but same I hardly ever use it. Hey, it's better than nothing.
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Haha phew. Good lol. In that case, I didn't tag you a lot haha. Just the right amount haha. I was just worried about you
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Yeah, I know it should be normal to feel relieved..still there's that feeling lingering that it's not right or something. Thank you though. I think my biggest worry is that I've been numb to a lot of it. Displaced to an extent. I think a long time ago I set up a defense mechanism to be numb to things in an attempt to avoid being hurt. I'm sure that dam will break at some point and at that moment I'm not sure.
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You do say things that help. All the time, and not just with me. Also, I don't wish to put that burden on you. You don't have to say anything. I'll be okay and figure it out
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Very true about the family. So far it's been okay.

Hehe yay! Hope you liked it. I was was wanting to make a new one, but I just haven't had time. Yeah, a lot of things going on right now. Sorry, I know. I owe you feedback. Yay, I'm glad it made your night (haha autocorrect tried to put I'm glad it made your nipples). Be safe and have a great day @aviva

I don't know if it's just all the stuff going on or what, but I just wasn't as interested as the site without you

Hmm more or less okay? Glad you're okay. Well whatever you're dealing with, I hope it goes well. You got this! You can talk to me about it if you want whenever. Yeah, I was a bit worried about you. Just wanted to make sure you were okay. Haha I just looked and I think I tagged too much. Sorry, I don't mean to be clingy about it and you definitely have no responsibility or obligation to people here. I'm in fear of this site just randomly shutting down one day and losing contact with everyone.
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I'm doing okay I think. In a way relieved. At the same time that makes me feel like a shitty person. She just hurt for so long. I'm dealing with all the paperwork and funeral arrangements and it's a bit overwhelming. My mom didn't really have anything, but she had a lot of debts with medical Bill's and things. I was kinda alone. My aunt and my mom's friend came and saw her. My sister came later and is being okay. Usually she just makes things harder. We'll see