It's difficult to not take it personally when you keep getting 'I don't want a relationship with you'

I feel your pain. I met a guy and then I discovered that he truly believes that if you ate organic, juiced, and were a vegan, it would cure what ails you. By ails I mean, cancer, asthma, dementia, etc.

Same!

Disenchantment

Disenchantment

According to his sign, he deserves it.

@celticrose (((hugs))) I'm sorry you were assaulted. You should be really proud of how far you've come as what you've survived. I totally get why you turned to eating because I did the same thing after being sexually assaulted. You feel safer when you have the extra pounds on you because no one looks at you. You feel safer even though you're really not any safer than you were before. I've been working at loosing weight myself and I find it scary because I can't hide behind it anymore. Sometimes, I wish the people who judge overweight people would become overweight just so they may understand it a little more but I actually don't wish ill on anyone, just some understanding, compassion, and empathy.

Exorcizamus te, omnis immundus spiritus
omnis satanica potestas, omnis incursio
infernamlis adversarii, omnis legio,
omnis congregatio et secta diabolica.
Ergo draco maledicte
et omnis legio diabolica
adjuramus te.
Cessa decipere humanas creaturas,
eisque aetemae Perditoonis venenum propinare.
I could go on but it's too long.

Why do they have to be neon colours? Why can't they just blend in with everything so it's not quite so obvious that I keep a large amount in my bag in case anyone needs one?

I've been struggling with weight loss myself. I've learned that skipping meals and only eating a small dinner causes your body to go into starvation mode thereby making your body hold onto every calorie that it can. Only sharing in case in helps you with your journey. :)

Polycystic ovarian syndrome is quite common and can cause weight gain and make it very difficult to lose weight.

When it comes to war, everyone is a victim.

I have issues when I see people fat shaming someone who is fat but is trying to do something out it like walking or running. Plus, when you're fat, everyone judges you when you eat no matter what you're eating. You could be eating the healthiest food available and people will give you a hard time about it. Maybe you haven't eaten any junk food for a month and it's your friend's birthday so you have a piece of cake and people will make comments saying that maybe you shouldn't eat the cake. Thing is, you have to eat to survive.

Yep, mostly just ON and QC. It uses less plastic, takes up less space in your fridge, and reuse them to freeze fresh veggies, etc.

Maybe both

I don't feel as though I'm doing a good job at adulting but I guess that's actual adulting lol

I guess that means I'm officially adulting. *sighs* lol!

Most parents don't know how to do these things.

I've thought about it and it's so difficult to adopt a child if you're married and in your 30's let alone single and starting your 40's. For me, I think it's a completely different situation if you're in a relationship, have a child, and then split up therefore becoming a single Mum as opposed to going it alone from the beginning. I know that I'm strong enough to do it by myself but I don't think I could give the child everything I think it deserves, emotionally and monetary. I think I would so stressed out trying to pay the bills by myself plus be there physically and emotionally for the child. I do admit that I much prefer the idea/concept of being able to say "here! Take your kid for a while, I'm going for a run" lol

...as I would have been on my own and I don't think that's a good way to bring a child into the world (I do admire those who follow through with it though). I do wonder if I can actually have kids and sometimes my heart breaks when I see babies and small children. Each time I find out that a friend is expecting, I do find myself feeling jealous but sooo excited for them. Sorry for the long post, I guess emotionally, I find it difficult to describe as I was all over the map lol I felt a huge loss, pain (so much cramping), confusion (why would my body reject this), emotional pain (I have so much love to give), etc. I don't know if any of this answers your question or not...

Thank you @parisqeen I don't think you're being insensitive for asking how it felt emotionally. I think it's different for different people depending on their circumstances. I don't have any kids and I've never had an abortion so I don't know how either of those feel. I wasn't in a good relationship and we used protection but hey! things happen. For me, I was really lucky and wasn't far along, maybe a month and half in but your hormones kick in quite quickly so losing it felt like a huge loss for me. The urge to protect and nurture this little thing was really strong for me and that urge disappeared almost overnight for me. I was trying to deal with the urge and knowing that my body rejected this little life force, plus all the blood...omg so much blood! I was a wreck. All I wanted from him was a hug. Just hold me and let me cry a little but he just ran away and avoided me for some time afterwards. It's been a few years and I look back at it as a blessing in disguise...