She was ordered to pay as I was given full custody. She lost custody partly due to abusing both of her children (one is mine and one from another father) and carving me up like a Christmas turkey with a knife which is where the ptsd likes to , certain kinds of very popular knives cause me to lose my mind. Nightmares are a daily thing most of the time.

Not sure why I grind could be nightmares or ptsd related. High pain tolerance is both a curse and a gift, I shattered my ring fingertip back in February and didn't realize it until I went to an urgent care center because it was still bleeding 14 hours later.

My teeth are kind of bad anyhow due to a number of issues including grinding in my sleep and the such so I'm probably going to get artificial ones at some point. I have a very high pain tolerance so I really don't need to take any other than the odd over the counter or prescription ibuprofen. His 'mother' is likely going to jail in December as I just got a court summons about her being in contempt of support (between myself and her older son's father I'm sure she owes close to $15,000) she's in default over $6200 to my son. Frankly if she does get jailed I'd finally be able to sleep in peace, kind of hard to relax knowing the woman that abused and tried to kill you is walking the streets unsupervised, I'm just glad she can't drive (no license or car.)

I'm still hurting, and had to have two teeth surgically removed (cracked the roots and abscessed) my back is nerve damage so likely gonna be painful for awhile. Yeah I have a few choice words for his 'mother' thankfully he was an infant at the time but did find the court papers and my notebook from the time and read it without me knowing. He accepted my explanation and it doesn't bother him to not have a mother, when he has me, his grandpa and aunt, uncle.

Half life one.

I've seen worse face tattoos, I've personally seen a guy with a middle finger, a swastika and spider web covering his scalp (he was shaved bald) but yeah face tats is pretty much a death sentence for employment especially large or obnoxious ones.

On the adoption part, maybe when things get more stable for me. Most kids have difficulty with stealth and its always funny. My kid despite being badly neglected/abused as a baby (before the psycho was removed from the picture) has grown into a very kind and emphatic young man, he absolutely hates to see anyone in pain and will do his best to help them. Prime example, I got robbed/beaten at my job a couple weeks ago and was left with a cracked upper jaw and mild back injury, when I got home from the hospital my kid met me with my favorite drink (birch beer) and a couple ice packs. He spent the rest of that evening waiting on me hand a foot.

Yeah I dodged it to an extent, had a bruise on my thigh for a month. Wouldn't have mattered much anyhow since I'm not having anymore kiddos unless I adopt or find a *really* stable woman, I'm not riding the psycho train ever again lol, got way too many scars from the first one.

In most cases... Go take a huge steaming crap and then stare at it for an hour. And yet when they can't deal with their problems themselves who do they call for help?

I have taken a running headbutt to the crotch before, it was not fun.