I can totally relate to this. All the days before my birthday I was like "omgomgomg i am almost 15" and when i finally was, there was no "happy birthday". i don't even knew him real, we met on the internet, but he told me i was his everything so I fell in love.. ugh. Yeah, I cried myself to sleep that night, since then, we've never talked to each others. its almost 1 yr ago.
I can't say "it will get better," that's far too contrived and I don't know you or your situation... it might, it might not.
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What I can say is that if you do kill yourself, you prevent the possibility of it ever getting better.
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So please don't. Get help and give it a shot at trying to make it get better.
Dont hate me, but it kinda reminds me of max in spiderman.
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I really think that no one should be alone. Its depressing and it might drive you mad.
Now i feel lucky that I have friends, though not many, atleast I still have someone
But well... I'll be fine.
Thanks to you.
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What I can say is that if you do kill yourself, you prevent the possibility of it ever getting better.
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So please don't. Get help and give it a shot at trying to make it get better.
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I really think that no one should be alone. Its depressing and it might drive you mad.
Now i feel lucky that I have friends, though not many, atleast I still have someone