As a person with anxiety and depression who is suicidal and spent a week in a pysc ward I can confirm this. Think anxiety is cute? Tell that to my crying and hyperventilating during panic attacks. It's scary and makes my parents yell at me so no not cute.
Yeah, I've spent more time in psych wards than I'd care to admit, and I see these young kids coming in pretending and they get out realise how bad it is. Then the rest of us get shit because that 1% fake it, which makes it hard to get treatment when professionals don't believe you so you have to prove you fucking need help
Oh, you hate your life because your parents got you the wrong color car?
You know what i got?
Schizophrenia.
Depression.
Anxiety.
Panic attacks.
I have attempted suicide 4 times.
Hon, you should be celebrating.
I just wanted to say something....I used to be very, very depressed, I used to have awful anxiety and anorexia. But it did get better. I never thought it would, but it really did. Which means it can get better for you, too. The thoughts do go away at some point, you just have to ride out the hell til you get there. Keep hope :)
Lmao I didn't, it ended and I'm more depressed now + worse anxiety + disordered eating issues again (why did I say I had anorexia in that old comment jesus Christ I was never even diagnosed, 13 year old me was a fucking idiot)
Depression is not romantic and weepy. Depression is waking up every morning to the disappointment that your sleep apnea didn't kill you and having your skin crawl every moment at how fat you are, but not being able to muster the willpower to actually get something to eat, much less exercise the calories back off.
My father has schizophrenia and my therapist told me I'm showing signs because i keep seeing and drawling a man with a beak. I called him Birdman sometime i call Him Beaker. It's not fun trust me. I would be so greatful if i didnt ever see him. I get judge about seeing crazy shit and this people in tumblr thinks it fun to see shit hear shit feel shit that is scary. I swear its the main reason i stop using tumblr. That site gets on my nerve. That's all i have to say.
Depression is more like constantly being reminded how lonely and ugly and fat you are, and the you can distract yourself but there's no escaping it. I distract myself with YouTube videos amd movies 24/7 because I know if I'm left alone for one second my depression will crush me. And even these distractions don't drive it all the way away. I've cut just to feel something and for punishment, I've cried myself to sleep over 100 times in the past few months and some times I feel the need to die so strongly I felt like I wanted to tear into my own stomache and rip out my heart so bad that I felt physical pain. It's not a fucking game. It's hell
Guest I struggle with self harm
I cut for the same reasons as you do, I cut myself out of anger because i dont want to take it out on people, i get where you're coming from
I do the same with drug
I wish everyday it didn't have to be this way
Shit i wish they didn't discharge my from the hospital i still need help...
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· 9 years ago
Depression is not and never will be cute.
I do not give a blue fuck what you say.
I am so depressed I am permanently detached from life.
I don't even feel real.
None of my life feels real.
None of it.
So stop with the dramas with sad people in it.
I had the worst panic attack of my life this afternoon and it took an hour and a half to finally calm down and my boyfriend was trying to keep me from losing my head every second. It was one of the most terrifying things, because whenever I've been suicidal, I didn't do it because I cared too much. But today, during that attack, I kept thinking "I could slit my wrists or jump off a cliff and I would not give a fuck." It was horrible.
I used to think people who said they had panic attacks were faking it/being dramatic for attention... Until I had one. The first thing I thought was fuck how do ppl live with these in a reoccurring basis? My heart breaks for those who suffer from them regularly. The shit is painful and overwhelming. Be grateful if you've never had one but respect those who have and that you can't relate.
Idiots who pretend they have any of these for attention and to seem cool actually disgust me. I'm one of the fortunate ones to not have seriously suffered. I've been anxious and felt sad, but feeling sad one morning when your favourite band cancelled a tour doesn't warrant you being depressed. That particular example is one I heard during school once. It just means you're sad about it, I'm pretty sure depression is a whole lot worse. Luckily I've never suffered and I don't understand the idiots who do, with any sort of mental illness. Stop being dicks.
Rant over.
My parents think I pretend to have anxiety and sensory processing disorder and wwhenever I try to talk about it with them they say things like "everyone has quirks " and I dont know what to do anymore
Tell them you NEED help and you want to talk to a therapist because your life depends on it and if they still don't listen tell ur guidance counselor. Never stop fighting to be heard tell the adults in ur life again and again until they believe u. Dnt give up
I know it wasnt an insult! I just said I liked it and took it as a compliment :D And...Well, different is good. Not always, but most of the time. Everyone see the world in their own special way! ;D
Exactly. And the thing is, stuff like what you embrace just scares most people. So it surprised me that you don't mind them, but embrace them because you're right. They're a part of us.
And honestly I kinda agree with you. I mean, no I don't like having paralyzing panic attacks or crying at night. But I don't find my self harm scars ugly or horrible. I don't find them bad. I don't think /everything/ about me is awful, albeit most things.
Exactly! All feelings and stuff we do are a part of us. (eh okay maybe not EVERYTHING but you get it) We should not be scared of being ourselves! We shall be proud because even if there is some things with us other calls "slight defects" we still are beautiful and awesome people :D if its bad, then alright. Let it be a little bad. We live to see another day and along the way we might as well feel okay about ourselves because if we dont the next day will just be boring and ugly and scary. That is not okay.
So Im gonna watch some anime and you are going to do something you like and lets ignore these people who dislike my comments because of me being okay over something we cant rule over. (my english haha)
And as Eren from Attack on Titan says; "IM GOING TO KILL THE"... wait thats wrong we werent supposed to use that one.
"We fight to face another day, but will it be worth it if we are just hiding behind these walls?!"
(oh my god I shortened this text and its still long af x3 Sorry)
Believe me. Panic attacks are not something anyone wants to deal with. They're fucking terrifying.
Depression is not romantic.
It holds you back in the worst way possible.
And most of all my scars are not fucking 'beautiful'
They're what makes me scared to wear a swimsuit without feeling the judgemental eyes of everybody else.
how ironic that this post was originally from tumblr, the site notorious for romanticising and faking mental illness
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· 9 years ago
Let me tell you, from having depression really bad anxieties I can say that people who treat these like it's no big deal and it'll all be okay can go shove their opinions up their asses. If you have mental illnesses you can't just say 'oh that's so adorable you're gonna be okay' and it magically stops. If i'm in the middle of an anxiety attack or panic attack and someone walks up like 'oh how cute' i will come and slap them once i'm done crying and shaking in a corner in my room. Also if you pretend to have a disorder to be special you need to go reevaluate your life choices.
I have slight depression, serious anxiety, I have self harmed but not often enough to call it a real problem and I have the slightest most insignificant case of schizophrenia. So it's only when I'm alone that I see or hear things. And it's just like shadows and footsteps
I'm not in a serious condition and I'm so thankful that I'm not but panic attacks are a real problem. Bullying is a real problem. Abuse is a real problem. My childhood was shit. My mother ignored me but when she wasn't she would just scream hate at me. I'm so thank full I haven't had to go to a phsyc ward but I've needed someone for so long and I haven't gotten the help. Don't make this shit up. It's not fun.
I wasn't making anything up. I was trying to tell you to get yourself some help before it becomes a problems because when it does it doesn't really reverse.
*thankful
1. In what way do people think depression is "special"?
2. It's more that being anxious can be cute. Certainly the extreme version isn't.
3. Agreed.
4. It can be.
5. No, but the figure you can get from them can be.
6. Do people disagree with this?
7. I do what I want.
8. Indeed.
9. They can be, depending on circumstance.
You know what i got?
Schizophrenia.
Depression.
Anxiety.
Panic attacks.
I have attempted suicide 4 times.
Hon, you should be celebrating.
Im most likely never going to let go.
I cut for the same reasons as you do, I cut myself out of anger because i dont want to take it out on people, i get where you're coming from
I do the same with drug
I wish everyday it didn't have to be this way
Shit i wish they didn't discharge my from the hospital i still need help...
I do not give a blue fuck what you say.
I am so depressed I am permanently detached from life.
I don't even feel real.
None of my life feels real.
None of it.
So stop with the dramas with sad people in it.
"Mom halllp"
Rant over.
So Im gonna watch some anime and you are going to do something you like and lets ignore these people who dislike my comments because of me being okay over something we cant rule over. (my english haha)
And as Eren from Attack on Titan says; "IM GOING TO KILL THE"... wait thats wrong we werent supposed to use that one.
"We fight to face another day, but will it be worth it if we are just hiding behind these walls?!"
(oh my god I shortened this text and its still long af x3 Sorry)
Depression is not romantic.
It holds you back in the worst way possible.
And most of all my scars are not fucking 'beautiful'
They're what makes me scared to wear a swimsuit without feeling the judgemental eyes of everybody else.
*thankful
2. It's more that being anxious can be cute. Certainly the extreme version isn't.
3. Agreed.
4. It can be.
5. No, but the figure you can get from them can be.
6. Do people disagree with this?
7. I do what I want.
8. Indeed.
9. They can be, depending on circumstance.