I cant stand silence. Like if someone goes too long without talking to me or smiling i think theyre pissed at me.
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· 8 years ago
Me: Hey.
Friend: *smiles, then silence*
Me: Are you mad at me? Did I say hi too angrily? Are you just in a bad moo-
Friend: I'm fine.
Me: *thinking* He fucking hates me
I know. What the fuck is washing a dish at you? Or folding a sock in your direction? Thats not an abusive household, thats a parent tired of telling your lazy ass to do shit and you dont fucking do it.
I think they mean to say that those things would happen before they get abused. Like in my house if there was silence then I knew a big fight was coming
Woah now, being abused isn't a competition, we all have our scars and we all deal with things in different ways. Why are people so quick to shit on people being open and honest about their troubles fuuuuuuuuck
If team rocket isn't even trying to make trouble and understand than maybe you should blast off ....not ment to arggivate anything I just thought their name in the situation was humerous
Dear yukihaki, maybe years of abused had make your compassion and empathy deteriorate. I hope you'll be able to obtain that again someday. Emotional abused is very subjective you know; they don't have to experienced exactly what you did to feel sad and hopeless most of the time. People live life differently so get over it.
I grew up in an abusive family and I still live there since I'm not old enough to legally move out. I don't understand the laundry and sock ones, but the sigh and grocery thing I get. If someone sighs angrily or if I hear someone yell or glass shattering, my heart goes about 400 miles an hour. It really, really sucks and none of my friends understand.
I still live with my abusive parents as well. I totally understand your heart rate thing it happens to me too. I hope you get to move out soon and have the means to do so when the time comes. Until then, hang in there. I am here to talk if you need to. :)
Same here, I don't live with an abusive family but I am here to talk if you need to. If it helps I can explain the psychology behind the reaction your body has when stuff like that happens, some people find that helps. I wish both you luck and hope you stay strong during the tough times. x
my poor husband always feels bad too. its just such a natural reaction after growing up, ive been gone 10 years and i still flinch easily. its second nature.
I read through the comments and I can see some people turning this into a competition almost so I wanted to try to stop anything before a shit storm happens. Abuse doesn't have to be intense violence, in fact I think what this post is talking about is the 'triggers' before the abuse. These triggers of course vary in each abusive household, so for him it could be someone in a bad mood washing a dish, this could be a sign that something worse is going to take place. Any abuse is horrible and there are multiple psychological effects that occur afterward for the rest of the victims life, if any of you know or are in a situation like this you need to seek help immediately, even here's a start but of course you could be afraid.
You probably won't read this all but the last thing I want to happen is people abusing EACH OTHER over the abuse they may receive themselves. I'm no professional but I can try to help anyone if they need someone to talk to.
The phrase "we need to talk" or anything akin to that growing up with emotional abuse makes my anxiety go to the roof and my chest to the floor. I totally relate to this in terms of emotional abuse effects when I face challenges or fail and just general tasks and school. Its so horrible, it really is a trip to watch other people not react a certain way to things or do/say things nonchalantly that you never could.
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· 8 years ago
Oh my god.
It's like when your mom wants you to find something and you can't find it and you don't wanna go back there cause she'll attack you if you can't find it
Remembers me in university. A guy raised a hand to highfive me and I automatically protected my head under my arm, shivering. I stayed like that for five long seconds before realizing what the situation was, and he was puzzled af.
I didn't even realize I do this, overreacting to what others do, feeling I've done something wrong or I'm going to be punished just for the way someone else feels even though i dont deserve it.
I can totally relate. I wasn't physically abused as a kid, just constantly yelled at. When someone is yelling at you while multitasking, cabinets get slammed or bags get set down to hard. And the socks too. I am 30 years old, even now if I hear a cabinet get closed loudly, I think they are mad and ask whats wrong
And my mom shook me. It's truly terrifying because you can't do anything to tense up, It's out of control movement that bc of momentum you're going backwards and then snap forward, back of your skull hits your brain as it's being yanked back up it hurts so bad.
I was scared of ALL people until I was 25 years old because I thought they would hurt me. and slowly it dawned on me that everybody isn't going to hit me if I make them angry.
But almost as damaging is when she told me she was going unadopt me because I lied cuz I was scared of her. I'm 52 years old
And just last year I realized, " wait she punished me for lying, by lying to me?!"
Tell you one thing though: I broke the cycle and I didn't teach my kid to deal with what bothers them through physical aggression.
People might be taking your comment the wrong way but I'm sure you didn't mean any harm. Abuse has many forms but if you are meaning, do you live in an abusive household because someone folds a sock angrily at you, then no, these are triggers.
That's the cue, not the abuse. The little eyebrow movement or just-slightly-too-fast dusting of the TV that means the abuser has gotten angry and decided to take it out.
Friend: *smiles, then silence*
Me: Are you mad at me? Did I say hi too angrily? Are you just in a bad moo-
Friend: I'm fine.
Me: *thinking* He fucking hates me
Fucking hell
Stuff like that are normals as fuck
Here for you bud :)
You probably won't read this all but the last thing I want to happen is people abusing EACH OTHER over the abuse they may receive themselves. I'm no professional but I can try to help anyone if they need someone to talk to.
It's like when your mom wants you to find something and you can't find it and you don't wanna go back there cause she'll attack you if you can't find it
I was scared of ALL people until I was 25 years old because I thought they would hurt me. and slowly it dawned on me that everybody isn't going to hit me if I make them angry.
But almost as damaging is when she told me she was going unadopt me because I lied cuz I was scared of her. I'm 52 years old
And just last year I realized, " wait she punished me for lying, by lying to me?!"
Tell you one thing though: I broke the cycle and I didn't teach my kid to deal with what bothers them through physical aggression.