I've also learned that not only are the nicest people the scariest assholes, but being unaccustomed to expressing negative emotions they don't know how to control them or shut them off.
When pushed far enough/long enough to the breaking point, they often stay broken.
I feel the same way. Not knowing what lies behind the point where I "snap" I fear I might hurt somrone badly if I let myself go... I won't let that happen. *knocks on wood*
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· 7 years ago
i used to be a person that never got mad a day in his life. at a restaurant i worked at i was pushed to far. it was bad. i mean a guy doing coke on the job and threatening to bring a gun and shoot me, then the boss say and i quote "if he brings a gun, just bring a pair of handcuffs and piss on him or something" bad. i eventually turned to the biggest asshole for 5 or 6 years. it took a lot of control and about 2 years to purge myself of that anger. never make a good person mean. i was known for making all of the servers cry at least once. if i wouldn't get respect and people wouldn't listen to me i will hurt you. i wont just insult you, i will find out what that soft spot is and attack it. honestly though it was the only way i got them to listen, and after they were good workers. though, i still regret my anger all those years. happy to be happy again.
I'm 36 yo and see myself taking the first steps down this road. For more than ten years I Have been a firm believer in kindness. To me it is a revolutionary act to be kind. I never wanted to let my anger hurt others.
BUT: if the good ones are always peacefull the bad ones always win. "To have mercy with the wolves is to be cruel to the sheep" (hope I translatet this properly).
I feel like I HAVE to fight for those kind at heart. I wonder what path I will walk on in the future...
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· 7 years ago
the best advice i can ever give. separate yourself from your problems. if you need to walk away, do it. when your head is calm, try to resolve the thing that was setting you off. if it is a person, communicate with them. if that doesn't help contact someone above their head. communication with a calm head will always be the best tool of resolving any issue with a person. in fact a calm mind will always fix problems.
This is me. People are always surprised at what they get when they disrespect me. I'm a nice person, not a doormat. I gave you a chance, and you blew it.
You reminded me I had this one in the hopper.
When pushed far enough/long enough to the breaking point, they often stay broken.
BUT: if the good ones are always peacefull the bad ones always win. "To have mercy with the wolves is to be cruel to the sheep" (hope I translatet this properly).
I feel like I HAVE to fight for those kind at heart. I wonder what path I will walk on in the future...
Easy, by Barenaked Ladies
It's like the soundtrack to this happening.