Which one would you chose?

Works for me. I dont even want to know what avivas means when she says "I watch your house"

Wait when did she say that? I thought grim was watching the house and aviva was the drug detector?

Nice. Mine reminds me of the doggo my mom had(Bandit). I detect that you three have drugs on you.

Ha! I have 6 drugs! Nice try loser!

I think you're high because you misread my comment

I forgot my own comment, sorry xvarnah xD

@aviva well that's what happens when you're on 6 drugs!

It's been confirmed!! Dr and nice are drug-ful

I can never tell if people think my name is nice or if I've finally earned a funsub nickname

I assumed Nic, but I guess Nice still works

@dr_richard_ew based on the comment section I think @aviva might be right about the drugs after all :p
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@nicengelman I haven't figured out your name. My brain wants to read it as "Nice n Gel man" which makes little sense

@everypersononfunsubstance lol, my name is Nic Engelman, so my funsub name is just my real name

@xvarnah Well duhhh!! It's my job! lol :P
@nicengelman I figured but "Nice n Gel man" isn't SO bad

lol I don't know why but there's something sexual about it

Really? What about it is? Do you just have a dirty mind?

No no, we've already renamed him Fishing Rod Manfried

All men have dirty minds, it's the ones that try to hide it that are the real creeps

*Surprised by Nic's fact*
''Momma bear'' _ @xvarnah _ has been hiding things from me. Also in your comment, xvar, was that another dirty name?

@aviva wait what did I hide? And I have no idea if it's dirty or not - it stemmed from a chat discussion nic started explaining what his username is.
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Also his fact is probably correct

@xvarnah The ugly truth. Alright.
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Why do you think so?
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Unrelated but apparently, my aunt blocked me on a social media platform and messed up my legs in her birthday picture because my dress ''wasn't long enough''(my dress was pretty much the longest one among all the girls. It was almost touching my knees, almost covered my whole neck, and almost reached my wrists. Her sister's dress was mid-thigh or less and no one said a thing. She also said she wanted us to wear short dresses for her Photoshoot and I was even worried she'd complain about mine since abuse has made me crazy insecured about exposing my body even when I'm told I had the prettiest face and skin in the family(I can't tell if it was said to make me feel better). I'm not angry, but I'm starting to understand why some people say family isn't necessarily blood. ( @jasonmon ,incase you wanted to know. Also I'll reply to you both when I don't have a crazy day. So sorry I am taking so long to.)

@aviva mostly based off the ones I've talked to. But then I'm hardly innocent in that regard
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and don't worry about replying late - we know you're going through a lot (if that anecdote didn't make it obvious). Your aunt is a crazy harpy who is jealous and bitter and takes it out on you. I've known people who deliberately do everything they can to undermine other peoples' confidence and it has life long effects if you listen. I know it's not easy but try to remember EVERYTHING your aunt says about you, everything she does, comes from a twisted place of hate. It's not based in reality and not a reflection on you. You could have been wearing the most appropriate outfit in existence and looked like a model and she would have found a reason to pick you apart because SHE is a cruel, empty shell of a human with nothing but vitriol to offer.
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Don't take it to heart, darling aviva. You're already a more beautiful, brilliant person than she can ever hope to be

@aviva can I hug you? Like can I come to your place and hug you?
(And potentially eliminate all those who wish to hurt you but detailsdetails....)

@xvarnah Wait, did you just confess to having a dirty mind? :O
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And ok. Sunflowers tagged me to a post concerning iccarus and I was getting to respond but I lost the tab. I haven't seen her around to tell her though but I guess you and Paris handled it well.
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She makes it seem like can she do anything to me because she helped me with my dad stuff. And I will try to remember that. I stay away from all negativity as much as possible.
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I won't. Thank you. I'm just looking forward to turning 18.

@dr_richard_ew Hug? Are you with any weapons? :O I don't wanna get stabbed lol
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And eliminating them won't be necessary

@aviva Remember that you have a boundary: everything inside it is something you can control and everything outside it is something you can't control. Trying to control stuff outside your boundary is the definition of "suffering." Don't try and control your aunt or expect here to behave in a rational, polite way. She sucks and, at this point, even she has to know it. I like your coping mechanism of recognizing that "family isn't necessarily blood." You have your mamma bear and papa bear right here on funsub haha.
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I have been wanting to ask you what's up. Even if you want to type short stuff here or on the other thread, I'd like to know:
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1) How are you, day to day? You've been quiet here. So either you're happy and busy or sad and not feeling like reaching out? I hope it's the first one.
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2) Are you heading to university now? Did you take those people's offer of tuition?
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3) Are you getting the h*ck out of your living situation?
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You'll be 18 in FOUR DAYS. I'm so excited for you!

@aviva oh trust me, you're not the one getting stabbed

@jasonmon I haven't thought of that but I generally stay away from situations that I know are unnecessary, cause sadness, and just don't concern me; even if I'm the topic of discussion.
I don't try to control people's thoughts and emotions. I know that whoever you are or whatever you do, if someone has made up their mind to hate you, maim you, degrade you, hurt you, and believe negative things about you; no matter what you do, they will still do it. So I've stopped expecting much from people. People she subdues with her husband's money tell her she sucks but she doesn't care since they ''rich like her.'' Finally! You've accepted the papa bear title! lol.

Can I still hug you though?

@jasonmon I don't mind answering it here at the moment since I'm not saying anything crazy sensitive
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1) I usually say I'm good to be positive, but I'm still coping. I'm stronger than I was before. I remember when I used to cry about the stuff I told you about months back but now, they just make me think of solutions. I avoid conflict as much as I can and leave the house to an in-law's most of the day somedays when I feel like I can't cope. There are days I get up and feel really down and there are days I feel numb but try to make myself happy. I've been quiet for many reasons: Most days I get overwhelmed with the things going on in my life that I forget to come on. Sometimes I shut down and stay off all devices to take a breath. I've been managing an old phone for almost five years and it recently developed battery issues so when it goes off, I just leave it be. I'm asking an in-law for one for my birthday since he appears to be the only one that'll answer me.

@jasonmon Sometimes I do want to reach out but don't know how to pull myself to. I've gone through worrying since I was told I wasn't going to have a party because my uncle had too much to spend on. I don't know how to say this but I've sort of been bouncing in my head(like meticulously thinking about several stuff, circumstances,etc). I'm not sure I've explained it well though. I do log in whenever I can. Now I'm too preoccupied to even worry about getting my blue star back. I don't even know.

@jasonmon
2) I'm leaving for that this year. I accepted their offer. They wanted to meet up to discuss my choice of university and more. I'll keep you and @xvarnah updated about that soon.
3) I'm working on travelling to a different state to study, get a job, and then move out not long after if possible. I'd probably visit family for holidays and such but I'm already tired being around toxic and myopic people.
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And YES! I can't wait! :D
I'm surprised I typed out this much.
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@dr_richard_ew I didn't notice your comments earlier, sorry. And you being a chef and talking about stabbing remind me of the chef that wanted to kill Sebastian in The Little Mermaid lol. And sure, you can hug me :)

@aviva bring it here then!
*hugs you super tight*

It's funny, only going home on the holidays to see your family. You realize you're basically doing them a favor just by visiting them. I kind of feel like my relationship with them improved after I moved out but honestly I think I just gave less of a shit. Hopefully it works for you @aviva

I'm sure it will.

Thanks, dr
@nicengelman In some universities, if I'm staying on campus, I have to go home during the holidays. The rest of what you said has of a bit confused

@aviva I was just saying that not being around your family all the time usually means that eventually they start using "Guest Manners" with you. I only see my family around the holidays and I don't look forward to it. Things were very contentious when I still lived with them but now that I only see them a couple of times a year, rather than fight we all sort of fake polite with each other.

Oh, I get what you mean now. You have a point. At least it's better than being at each other's necks. Hopefully, in the future you all get it worked out. :)