I've had dreams a bit like that. I jump and take off like a goddamn rocket, only to realize that I'm not going to land so much as I'm going to hit the ground.
That probably has psychological implications, seeing as how it's been a recurring nightmare since the first time I was told that I was meant for great things.
I don't like to think about the implications, might be what drives a lot of decisions I've made and insecurities that are creeping up.
I don't want to be meant for greatness, I just want to be a good as I can be, now everything just feels inadequate. Especially my best.
I legitimately have no idea why you're apologizing. Which can only mean the Canadian is rubbing off on you.
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Idk anything about destiny or being destined for greatness or anything at all like that. I know some people have something different in their personalities that gives them that edge to achieve more than others.
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As the cutting edge in mediocrity all I can say is from what you've told me, and what I can tell, you seem like a guy who is driven. You don't value a lot of things Necessarily, but the things you DO value (home, honor, loyalty, integrity) you seem prepared to put your literal life on the line for.
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You're clearly willing to at least try handling things other people can't, and I can only assume you're capable given you got your medic-certification-thingy (<- technical terms, don't concern yourself with them)
I don't know where you'll end up, but I don't think rotting in the place you're in is what you're destined for necessarily. I don't know if you'll end up with achieving some outstanding greatness or not, either. Maybe you won't end up being a new bill gates (or someone admirable), idk, but doesn't necessarily mean you'll have failed, either
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It sounds like what you put your mind to, you will generally be successful at. You've got the drive for it. You're smart enough.
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and this is coming from someone who broke their arm long-jumping, so I know all about hitting the softest ground in the stupidest ways. Very much doubt your fate will be anything like that
I'm not sure where I'm headed, or where I want to be. But I know where I'm coming from, and where I don't want to end up. I've already fallen in other things, I'm not afraid to hit the ground again. I just feel like I'm holding my breath. I'll drown if I try to breath, I'll suffocate if I don't, so the only acceptable option is to get back to the surface.
I'll get out, or I'll ride out my time, and then I'll try something else. Pick up a trade, go into law enforcement, join up with a volunteer army, take a sabbatical in western Asia, learn an instrument. Whatever. I just can't let myself sit still, the worst thing I could do is get comfortable. But it's real easy to say any of that, I've got work to do still.
Thank you for the vote of confidence.
Knowing where you DON'T want to end up is 60% of the battle
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You've got a good head on your shoulders. Might not be a clear way out of where you are right now, but you'll get there. It's just a roadbump on the way to something better, something you'll be happier doing. I'm sure of it
That probably has psychological implications, seeing as how it's been a recurring nightmare since the first time I was told that I was meant for great things.
I don't want to be meant for greatness, I just want to be a good as I can be, now everything just feels inadequate. Especially my best.
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Idk anything about destiny or being destined for greatness or anything at all like that. I know some people have something different in their personalities that gives them that edge to achieve more than others.
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As the cutting edge in mediocrity all I can say is from what you've told me, and what I can tell, you seem like a guy who is driven. You don't value a lot of things Necessarily, but the things you DO value (home, honor, loyalty, integrity) you seem prepared to put your literal life on the line for.
.
You're clearly willing to at least try handling things other people can't, and I can only assume you're capable given you got your medic-certification-thingy (<- technical terms, don't concern yourself with them)
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It sounds like what you put your mind to, you will generally be successful at. You've got the drive for it. You're smart enough.
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and this is coming from someone who broke their arm long-jumping, so I know all about hitting the softest ground in the stupidest ways. Very much doubt your fate will be anything like that
I'll get out, or I'll ride out my time, and then I'll try something else. Pick up a trade, go into law enforcement, join up with a volunteer army, take a sabbatical in western Asia, learn an instrument. Whatever. I just can't let myself sit still, the worst thing I could do is get comfortable. But it's real easy to say any of that, I've got work to do still.
Thank you for the vote of confidence.
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You've got a good head on your shoulders. Might not be a clear way out of where you are right now, but you'll get there. It's just a roadbump on the way to something better, something you'll be happier doing. I'm sure of it