This was really deep

how do you get paid? it's usual that payday is once in a month in germany.

Depends you can get paid weekly, which is somewhat rare, bi-weekly, or monthly.

bi weekly tends to be the norm, with variation for positions with commission,

Pay day is a monthly thing in my country.

I think the point was that they all go "awww yeah" cause what they wanted got there, while the last one did his waiting already and nothing came

Then wait more. I'm still waiting for something I'm hoping never comes, just so I can bask in the anticipation of happiness. That person isn't waiting anymore. They're giving up.

Oh hey, im in the same ones as you. I always feel like its weird to tell anyone cause there are always the ones who think we fake it but, Ive fone with depression for a very long time, and still Ive always have a mentality that is that if you just give up you wont ever have the chance to see things get better, and I dont wanna miss that

I'm not depressed or anything like that. I just like having that eternal anticipation of finding a SO without actually getting there because I know my imagination's better than reality.