Suicide's easy. Courage is knowing shit ain't gonna be pleasant or fun, and doing it anyways.
Keep your head up. Get angry, get spiteful. Throw some dirt at the shit that makes life hard. What's it gonna do, kill you?
Im hoping to die sometime in my late 20s from things i cant control. Maybe ill have one last fuckup that leads to my demise, or maybe ill have a heart attack, etc.
If you feel like this all the time you need to talk to someone, anyone, I'm here, we're all here for you and you are loved. If you have the ability to see a professional do that too, you're incredible for coming this far and you can keep going.
I always feel like a burden on my friends and family when i talk to them about my depression, so instead i sometimes post memes like this to cope. I did see a counselor for a while but it didn't seem to help.
That's okay, it's very normal to feel like that and you've probably been told many times that you're not a burden but I know it's almost impossible to rid yourself of that mindset. Have you tried other counsellors or psychologists? counsellor tend to be limited in their knowledge (no offence to any counsellors here,just my personal experiences)
This isn't always the case but if depression is linked to something else and you know what it is, it can help to seek out someone who specializes in that. I'm seeing one atm and it helps but I understand that it's different for everyone, so it may or may not work for you.
You are smart, you are strong, you are worthy. What has helped me is to think like this: life will be so different in a year. Just one year!! Think how different things were a year ago. How different you were, the things you did/experienced. Life has so much to offer, even when it seems to suck dick
I heard this advice not too long ago and it helped me through some shit, granted i was never suicidal just straight up hated myself and my life/situation. I honestly think discipline helped me through so much of my childhood and now adulthood. My father and former stepfather were/are alcholics. My mother and step father chain smoked cigarettes. All of my friends, the rejects and dregs of society, did drugs and alcohol all through school but i made it a point to never do any of those things. I was literally surrounded by it everyday but i forced myself, trust me it wasn't always easy, to be better than that. I'm thankful to myself for getting through those times. Now I'm not saying that discipline is the only answer and it may not be your answer but that's for you to discover as it's your life to lead.
Do you know you're a very rare person? If you want to read something interesting, look up Strain Theory. It states that those in peer groups like yours, with a history like yours are highly likely to end up just like their peers. You go against statistics and that I think is amazing.
I did/do my best. Wallowing in self hatred and pity is not how i want to spend my 1 life that I have on this earth. You got 1 shot do the best you can while you can. Exceed expectations and better yourselves anyway you can.
After reading that i feel that that explains much of what our parents, atleast here in the us, felt. My father tried so desperately to live the american dream. He bought several houses and vehicles and always had to sell them or they were reposessed. He's in his mid 40's and will be moving back in with my grandparents, as he doesn't have any money whatsoever, once my brother and i find an apartment in the city so he, my brother, can go to school. I strive to never end up in that situation so long as I can help it.
I think that's all you need, you're drive and determination is going to make you not end up in that situation. Although your family, genes, history and environment all play a role in your life, you are the ultimate decider, you are in control of where you wish to go and what you wish to be. As much as good role models are to have in your life, I think sometimes the bad ones teach us more.
Dying is easy
Living is hard.
Dying takes so little effort and time, a handful of pills, a bullet, a tall bulging (that's not even yours)
Living is just... it takes forever! And you have to do countless things to continue to live.
Keep your head up. Get angry, get spiteful. Throw some dirt at the shit that makes life hard. What's it gonna do, kill you?
Living is hard.
Dying takes so little effort and time, a handful of pills, a bullet, a tall bulging (that's not even yours)
Living is just... it takes forever! And you have to do countless things to continue to live.