I do this, have for years, can't remember when it wasn't there, comes up when i'm alone on rare occasions. Dealt with something by myself for as long as i can remember, each day is a stuggle to smile and get through, been harder lately. Tried one of those "chat to someone" websites, I just sat there looking at the screen, it's best to keep things as they are, inside so no one else knows
I'd like to know the answer to @xavarnah's question as well. I understand not wanting to share, either you believe you're a burden or maybe that people won't understand or many other reasons. Regardless, you don't deserve to be alone and you don't have to suffer alone, you don't have to keep everything inside because it starts to corrode you. If you would like to, you can try and talk to us? or one of us if that makes you more comfortable?
nah, i've dealt with it for longer than i can remember, tried an anonymous chat help site, but couldn't say anything
thanks paris, i don't think i'm aburden, but it's my burden, been so long dealing with it, sometimes it gets to the surface, but i suppress it and hide it when it does
I'm sorry I'm just asking questions, but do you have any idea why you couldn't say anything on that site? Or why you don't talk about it? You're not obligated to answer of course
it's ok to ask, i'll answer if i can, not sure why, no idea what to say, i've literally dealt with issues alone for so long i know that no one can really relate or understand. not dangerous, just isolated
Would you like someone to talk to?
I remember a few years ago, when I was coming through severe depression I felt almost uncomfortable not being depressed because it was really unfamiliar to me so I almost wanted to be sad again. To feel safe and constant again even if it meant it hurt me. This might seem unrelated but maybe it's similar with you and dealing with this alone because you haven't known any other way. Pushing yourself out of that comfort zone might help though, talking might help, no harm can come from it.
thanks paris, i don't think i'm aburden, but it's my burden, been so long dealing with it, sometimes it gets to the surface, but i suppress it and hide it when it does
I remember a few years ago, when I was coming through severe depression I felt almost uncomfortable not being depressed because it was really unfamiliar to me so I almost wanted to be sad again. To feel safe and constant again even if it meant it hurt me. This might seem unrelated but maybe it's similar with you and dealing with this alone because you haven't known any other way. Pushing yourself out of that comfort zone might help though, talking might help, no harm can come from it.