Healing

You just need to smile more

@savage_demmigod How are things going now bud? Getting better?

Um half and half. Somethings have just gotten worse but a couple have gotten a little better
Thank you so much for checking in though... I really hope that you're doing well

Of course, even if you dont realize it there are people thinking of you and your well being and hoping you're okay. Do not forget that.

@savage_demmigod This week going okay? You doing okay?

Dude you make my heart swell. I appreciate the check ins
I'm doing a little better actually. Started longboarding with is really good because its helping me get outside more and because I have to focus so much it helps me get out of my head

How have you been holding up?

Longboarding is a good idea. Something, anything you can focus on that makes you feel positive, makes you feel a good challenge.

Doing okay, every day breathing is a lucky one.

@savage_demmigod are you doing okay? Preparing for the holidays?

Hey @interesting
Christmas has definitely put me in a slightly happier mood. I'm trying my best to look more on the bright side and its helping.
I found out that my cat has stopped eating though... I reckon she might not be there when I get back home from my vacation but I'm just trying not to think about that right now
Merry Christmas though [if you celebrate it]
Hope you're doing well

@savage_demmigod I'm still here for you bud. You're stronger than you realize.

@savage_demmigod you still doing okay? I like to make sure you're alright.

Hey @interesting
I'm actually doing really well. A little stressed out because I've been procrastinating a commission that I need to be doing but I'm getting the hang of just sitting my ass down and working lol so wish me luck
How have you been? How's the new year treating you? It's so cool to hear from you again

Doing okay, it has been very rough but starting to get better. I am glad you are doing much better and I am very happy that things are going better for you.

Well if you ever need anyone to vent to I'm on dischord and a great listener, otherwise if you're looking to be distracted or just feel like you could use some company I'm here for you
I'm really glad to hear that things are getting better though. I hope that through all this you're remembering to be kind to yourself because holy shit do you deserve that and so much more.

@savage_demmigod you still doing okay? Been a couple of months but wanted to check on ya.

Hey @interesting
Man is it good to hear from you
Honestly? I'm doing pretty fucking bad at the moment but I'm mostly managing to keep my head above the water, I mean this isn't my first rodeo but its definitely not my easiest one either.
How are you doing, epic being? What's going on is your world?

About the same, so thought about you. Things might be tough but you're strong, you got this.

We can get through this
I'm sorry to hear that you're in the thick of it again.. you deserve so much better than that
But hey, at least through all this we've got someone we know is looking out for us and I think that's pretty cool
Keep swimming my dude, you're not in this alone
If you ever need a chat like I said I'm practically glued to my phone

@savage_demmigod come talk to me here, what happened?

Heyo dude. Honestly I think we just grew to want different things in the relationship. It was a really clean break and we're still chatting a little every now and again since pretty much all of our friends are mutual friends but it does still hurt to have lost such a great relationship. Even if we had stayed together I'd still be mourning the lost relationship of old you know? It was a fucking amazing 2 years, we never had any significant fights at all because we always just talked it through. What's really sad is that he wasn't looking for a social connection in the relationship and being good friends with the person I want to spend the rest of my life with is something that's really important to me so once we realised that we pretty much realised it was over. All the things I suggested doing to try make it easier for him to bond 'socially' with me he just shot down or explained away so yeah...

I think our view on how the future would go was also pretty different [I don't want biological children at all, but I'm keen to adopt if I ever want kids and he really wants to continue his bloodline and have biological children of his own] which made it hard to plan a life together....
But yeah, ultimately I realised that being in a relationship with someone that I didn't have a social connection to was hard, but spending the rest of my life with them would be a slow suicide

It's rough now but you'll realize feeling the pain means you must have felt something pretty great for losing it to hurt you that much. If anything it night be scary but exciting that you get to search for something or someone that makes you feel that wonderful again and hopefully you can hold onto each other for ages.

And better yet I get to finally be with the me that I've become thanks to this great relationship
I have grown an absolute insane amount a d it's great

@savage_demmigod lost my old phone and couldn't reset my password to my account, created a new one. Hope you're still doing okay. It's me, Interesting.

I'm so sorry to hear that! Love the new user name though :D
I'm actually doing okay to be honest. It's been fucking tough but I know I'm handling things well and I've got so many good friends to support me

I hope you've been well?

Doing okay, feeling a bit burnt out lately. Think I just really need to take more time to myself. Easier said than done though.

Ha, you can say that again.
I'm sorry you're feeling so burnt out. I hope your hobbies and interests give you that extra boost of happiness <3 keep well my friend

@savage_demmigod You doing okay my friend?

Surprisingly I am... I'm actually coping. Lots of tough times in between but I'm doing well and I for the first time in a long time I can feel I'm making progress. It's still fuck off hard. But... better
I wanted to say thank you for all these kind words and for your consistent check ins. Even though I I've never met you, you are such an amazing friend and I'm so ecstatic to know that I have the pleasure of being your friend.
How are you holding up @sinstriken ? Also what's something that made you happy this week? Mine was fining the name of a book series I've been looking for for the past 6 years and getting to borrow them from a friend

Still need to actually start reading them lol but everything in time I guess

Doing okay, lots of work, lots of lost sleep. We may not have ever met, and I might not be able to bring you coffee if you're having a rough time, or pat you on the shoulder when you're in the thick of it, but it doesn't mean I'm not there for you and pushing to help you get through it all.

And I'm always here cheering you on. I hope this stage of lots of work will pay off in the end and even if it doesn't may the regained sleep be glorious
May your next set of clean sheets be extra crisp and snuggly and may your next cup of coffee be just how you like it
Keep well my friend
Is there anything in particular you've needed to get out recently? I'll always be here

Some weeks are more difficult than others, I'm not the sort of person whose in a position to express how I feel very often, I'm the one who has to sort of bear the weight of the world for others. It gets to be pretty exhausting but I do it for the folks I care about. I'll be there for you as well. Always.

I get that. I lived that role for my whole life until a few years ago. There's something so safe about carrying other's weight for them, [probably a childhood trauma response in the end, the only way to feel safe was to make sure the people around you were happy and their needs met, at least that's what I seemed to do it for]
I hope that the people you carry the world for help carry yours too. It's so great to help others just be sure to help yourself equally as much. Ask others for help when you need it because they care for you just as much and you're so much more than just an emotional crutch, revel and enjoy your hobbies in your free time as often as you can [even if your hobbies are naps or steeling geese] so long as you're getting what you need[and if you aren't looking after yourself so help me I will come find you and I will see to it personally]
My dear Atlas you deserve the world, not the weight of it. You deserve the happiness and the beauty it has to show, the joy,

The comfortable sadness, the glorious fiery anger, the delicious smells and bright colours, the beautiful monotone days that almost always end in rain, good music and all your favourite books. Don't forget to enjoy everything that that world on your shoulder has to offer, don't forget to live your life for yourself aswell
I hope that I can help take at least a little of that weight and if I can't may there be those in your life who do, who bring a wheelbarrow or heck even a bloody crane to help drag all that weight that you carry through the bad weeks with you. You deserve to get all that you give out to the world my glorious friend.

@savage_demmigod Are you doing okay? Things going well?

I'm doing okay, been really busy. Joined a pop punk band which has been absolutely amazing. Found out my ex moved on though so that really just ouch but alas just trudging through it all. Also doing pole dancing again which is great for exercise and just self confidence
I hope you're doing alright. How have you been since we last spoke?

Probably going to be leaving this site soon, you can find me on the funsubstance discord server... you're the coolest one around here and it's been so amazing to get to know you. I hope we can continue but if not, you have been an absolute pleasure to talk to. You have been an immensely positive influence in my life I'm so grateful for it, for you. Keep being absolutely wonderful. Chat again soon, I hope

Love you dude

@savage_demmigod Jice#5335, add me on discord.

@savage_demmigod Let me know your discord name to make sure I accept the correct request. Forgot for a moment this is a public FS thread.

Songbirdsavage#3519 feel free to delete the post after!