It's been a while. How are you feeling fellas? Wanna get something out of your chest?

I'm lonely
Not depressed, anxious, suicidal, or anywhere near as unfortunate as many people, even on this site
But I feel like my friends don't want to spend time with me
Several of them have stopped replying after a few texts or me asking to meet up, for example
I'm very intense
And I feel it may drive people away

My mom died last night. My dad died in September of 2016.
And I cried so hard last night I am emotional numb.
She lost her year long battle with cancer.
It started all because some whore put an IUD in my mom after she gave birth to my youngest brother. Her 6th kid. And they didn't tell her. So it stayed in for 28 years.
It developed scares around it and they got cancerous. It spread thought her uterus. Than to her breast. And on January 1st she found out it reached her brain.
Yesterday morning she was rushed to the hospital and air lifted to Austin Texas because she had blood on the brain. They worked for 15 minutes but she was gone. Even if she lived she been a vegetable. Either way she would of been gone.
I live in California and this all happen in Texas. I had to sit by the phone and wait to see what happens. It was the hardest thing I've ever done even though I did nothing.

One of my best friends messaged me last night that they had relapsed into self harming and this time, the only thing that made them stop was that they ran out of time else they'd of been discovered. I'm also not doing fantastic myself.

I've really got a bit too much to say anything...
But to anyone reading this I hope that you're feeling alright. It's okay to be sad just be careful not to drown in it... and of you do need to drown just make sure you've someone who can tie a rope around your waist and keep you anchored until they need to pull you out

My girlfriend of 5 years decided she needed a break and some time away so we can grow separately as people. She said she’s felt this way for awhile but I felt completely blind sided. She told me she wants us to start over. I’m dying inside every day she’s not in my life. This is the hardest thing I have ever went through. My only hope is that she will come back soon

My mental health isn't really getting any better.
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One of my friends is suffering with her depression, and I'm worried for her, because she doesn't want to talk about it.
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My dysphoria's been pretty bad recently too. Everything just feels like I'm in a limbo, just stale and dull. I don't have enough money to do what I want, nor can I work to increase my funds.
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Also I've been getting a lot of headaches recently, despite not having any in probably over a year.
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Good news is that my mom is taking me more seriously when I tell her about my internal struggles, and she's started to use neutral pronouns towards me, at my request. It's taken a long time to get through to her.

My mom needs dental surgery and she's stressed about it as she needs to take pills every day for other health problems and she's afraid it would interfere. So her stress amplifies, she's forgotten to ask something to the dr (and the dr herself did not ask her any questions, I mean I get that we have a dr crisis in my country and she doesn't have that much time but geez, that's important to know these infos about your patient!!) Plus my mom only got yesterday the paper listing the possible side effects and she's freaking out; My dad is always half-listening while she needs someone to really be there for her. i'm trying my best, I've asked her to scan and send me the papers so I can carefully read and discuss them with her, but I just wish my whole ass family would be supportive, just for once, because they never are and she doesn't deserve to feel left on the side like that. And living in another town sucks, I can't see her as much as we'd need.