Just because you're learning doesn't mean you're shameful. No one is born perfect, and no one gets there overnight. You're trying your best, even if no one around you can see it. And that's more than could be asked for.
I'm sure your future self's happy you got there in the end.
I'm a cringey furry that looks like a dude, who always runs away from confrontation.
Sure, I'm not the worst, but I could be a better person.
Just because you're learning doesn't mean you're shameful. No one is born perfect, and no one gets there overnight. You're trying your best, even if no one around you can see it. And that's more than could be asked for.
I'm sure your future self's happy you got there in the end.