Nobody ever can, not at the level of the thoughts swirling around in your head - *nobody knows anybody that way*. That's why you have to be okay with yourself, and work on controlling those thoughts so they don't control you.
I know how you feel I've been abused physically and emotionally nonstop for as long as I can remember by family members and even complete strangers and it got me straight to the point where I've almost given up completely to suicide many times but I don't because of my son who needs me so I basically cut a lot because it gives me the feeling like I'm trying to commit suicide and it's just really difficult handling all this pain I go through everyday
I'm so sorry that you've gone through this belindan. All I can say is that your son loves you and there are people that care about you. Like other people have been saying here, us funsubstancers are always here to just talk to, and there are also anonymous free helplines where you can basically just rant. Remember that nothing lasts forever, it really doesn't, and with help from those around you you can change your life.
The thing that urks me so much is that we never ever, ever know what someone else is truly thinking about. Our thoughts and minds are infinite. The things we do by ourselves will only be remembered by ourselves. A moment can be lost so easily. A thought may never be verbalized. I don't know this kind of just... I find it so.. fascinating? I don't know if that's the right word.
Me too, Apples. What gets me every time is that we can't even know that anyone else *has* a mind. We only experience other people's thoughts indirectly; everyone else could be a robot and there's no way we could ever prove otherwise. A bit like The Truman Show =) or The Matrix, or Dark City. You should totally watch Dark City.
This post just hit me so hard, my friends and i always talk about whats going on. I even have a counselour I talk to once a week but still i cant bring myself to tell them all the times im sad or about to snap, when its them you can see it on their face or they tell you but i just keep it bottled up and try to find a silver lining. Theres so much of me that feels like its literally dying and its all locked inside of me, turning me into someone whos always really angry and I dont know he to let it out anymore...
I know this comment will sucs but, i feel just exectly the same.
Last year i'm going to another school and i like it a lot. But the guy i had a crush on doesn't liked me, and that sorta problems...
This makes me so sad. I'm really sorry you feel this way... I wish I could give you a big ol' hug. If you don't mind me asking, what's causing you to feel this way? Trust me, I'm always here to talk, along with the rest of the FS users.
And please don't feel like there's no other eay to get out of your situation. You've probably heard that it gets better and you may not believe that, but it really does. I promise.
I promise you can always talk to me. And I think you should jist focus and reading and writing when you can't talk to anyone. I really am sorry. :( And please don't ever think suicide is an answer. I promise people would care. I would care. Your family. Your friends. Everyone means the world.to someone.
DoubleDare I really hope things start to get better. I remember you told me and some other users about this on Lime's post about a funsubstance story. If you don't mind me asking, have you talked to your aunt?
Well I want to become president of my country, to get it back into a glorious state with no poverty or job shortage. But with the communist (democratic as they cover it up to rest of the world) would never allow it.
Wow vlekkie! That's really amazing that you dream that big. Lots of us wanted to be president when we were kids but then when we became older we realized what a big responsibility it was. It think that it's really awesome that you want to accomplish that. But I'm sorry that you think it's a long shot :(
Hey doubledare. Listen I've had ups and downs in my lifetime. I thought about suicide myself and sometimes I still do. I know it's a cowards way out but sometimes the pain just becomes unbearable and then I sit there thinking even my suicide will be a mess so I try holding my breath for as long as I can. Even after all that goes through my head I realise I don't want to die. So I just hope and hope that each and everyday here on out is better than the last. I still believe things can and will get better. I sincerely hope that it does for you. If it is at all possible, if I get the chance to fix my life I would give up that chance to you because I know how it feels to live by each day. I don't have the answers but I would say is, I love you. Don't give up, please!
Just remember that FS would not be the same without you, Dare. I know that can seem like a small thing, but to us it's not. And I'll add one more voice to the "It gets better" choir.
Fair warning: it may not get perfect. Every time I get into that dark corner where I think suicide is the answer and manage to crawl back out, I think "Okay it's over and done. I survived and this is the last time, by God!" and then months or years later I'll end up there again.
But even if I never really get past that, I am more grateful than I can say for the things and people that keep me here and I can agree that it has gotten *better*.
You got that right!
Last year i'm going to another school and i like it a lot. But the guy i had a crush on doesn't liked me, and that sorta problems...
(Somewhere that's hot preferably )
Fair warning: it may not get perfect. Every time I get into that dark corner where I think suicide is the answer and manage to crawl back out, I think "Okay it's over and done. I survived and this is the last time, by God!" and then months or years later I'll end up there again.
But even if I never really get past that, I am more grateful than I can say for the things and people that keep me here and I can agree that it has gotten *better*.