Depression

Mental illnesses are very confusing. As long as someone understands it's hard to handle, give em some credit

And then you get little bouts of happiness that make things more confusing.

So...that last part is boredom and impatience?

At a summer camp i was forced to reveal my mental illnesses to my roommates after having an anxiety attack in the shower when they banged on the door and started yelling at me and I told them I also had depression and they were like, "okay, no you don't," and I asked, "what makes you say that?" and one of them said, "i've seen you be happy and smile and laugh." I told her that isn't how it works, but she had a hard time understanding that my smiles and laughter is mostly just a habit of faking it, and very rarely actual joy.

I noticed that the more fucks I give the more depressed I get, so I reduced the amount of fucks and I acually feel better

They forgot that tiny, completely random, and infuriatingly short burst of mania followed by a seemingly never-ending fall into the pit of despair.

+the realisation of the insignificance of one's existence.

and then you have no feelings at all

Ooh, ooh, don't forget "irrational irritation at nothing."

I can definitely relate to the 50% thing.

Omfg YAAAAAAAS

The opposite of depression is vitality