This stress toy

I love it, and hate it, at the same time

I want

That's disgusting, i love it!

Ignoring the fact that these are called "sucking and vomiting balls" by some places.. You can get them here, though I don't know this website
https://shop.odditymall.com/products/squishy-puking-yellow-egg-stress-ball

Bulimia ball

for when you're sick, but hungry at the same time