Why can't you understand me?!

That's why depressed people tend to sleep a lot.
At least I did. Well, it was more of I didn't wanna be awake and dealing with life and people.

I only woke up because I had to use the bathroom. The blankness of sleep is amazing.

Exactly

I used to lay on the ground and imagine the grass was engulfing me and moss was growing on the vague shape that used to be me. Not having to exist is so tempting when you're in that state.